I Miss YOU

I miss you...
where are you now?
I miss you...
where have you gone?
waiting the whole life for you...
i miss you and i need you...

it was raining when i left and it's still raining
I kiss you...

looking at the trees.. \i see how my love for you has grown and how it has thousands of versions ... nevertheless, the root is still the same simple fact that I love you.

I miss you in thousands ways..in thousands miles...

UK/Shieffield

Manifest your life...

Sa(lman+ra) will work on a new task which will be manifesting our life.

I bet we will learn so many new things about eachother.

Data Transfer Log...

Start Point: Data to be transferred :(Tuesday, April 01, 2008)



Stored in the DB : 5192 GB
Data on the session: 5000 GB
Ongoing Traffic : Approx ~ 2000 GB/M




(Monday, Nov 02, 2009)



Stored in the DB : 25500 GB
Data on the session: 2000 GB
Ongoing Traffic : Approx ~ 3000 GB/M

Just a reminder for myself about the TV series...

1) HIMYM --> End of Season 5


















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2) The office --> Up to end of season 4




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3) 24 --> Up to end of Season 5

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4) Friends --> Completed.




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5) The big Bang Theory --> up to end of season 3.



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6) Gossip Girl --> End of Season 3





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7) Two and a Half Men --> End of Episode 15 of Season 7


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8) Entourage --> End of Season 6


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9) 30 Rock --> End of Season 1




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10) It's always sunny in Philadephia --> End of Season 1

Business administration

It takes so much effort and work to make a successful business. Not knowing that, can make you work 24 * 7 and not even achieving half of your goals . You should stand up for your goals and it's hard but fruitful. Made a decision long time ago but never had a chance to dedicate my energy for it. It's excellent implementation of Information Technology. It's IT with the highest possible EXCELLENCE.

Fingers crossed ....

A place like hell........

In my imagination, hell should be something like:

Your plane crashes into a beautiful island where there is no one else, you know that you will have to stay there for years till someone finds you. You have got all the food you need for couple of years and plus, you have got a laptop with with an atomic battery (it will last long for couple of years), you have got a satellite-based Internet connection (don't ask me how!). You turn on your laptop, during the boot you see "BSOD" (Blue screen of death) .

Worry about getting done

"If I spent as much time doing the things I worry about getting done as I do worrying about doing them, I wouldn't have anything to worry about."
-- Beryl Pfizer

A new day

Why don`t you kidnap me for all time sake?
And I`ll come breaking to your house again.
I know you love it when I show you that I really care.
I never felt so safe when I`m lying up your favourite chair

Of a new day
A new day

Why don`t I break all of the rules we made?
Why don`t you throw me in the pool just like that day?
We used to stay up so very, very late,
We used to play our favourite songs until the first sign

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ark5Sw5CTho

Mixture of feelings...

It's a strange stage when your feelings are constantly affected by your daily life. let's put it this way: Stating a day assuming that it will be a great day and you know that you have taken care of everything that is related to you and therefore it will be a fine day. Nevertheless, as time goes by, you realize that the day is not going as you have planned. why? because, others have their own impact on your day. They may change its direction, lighten up or even make it a not-so-perfect day. Well you may say we should not let others to do so and I really want to accept it but, the problem underlying this topic is that you don't want to ignore other's feeling. Long time ago when i was involved in some NLP courses, we learned how to pass everyday's facts through pre-defined filters so you may totally change the meaning of a fact and make it more pleasant. The question that I have been struggling with is that how one can define the Quality of communication in a conversation. Is there any Best, worst, average case ? if there is , what are the figures? Your conversations with your close friends and your life's key people should not become a hassle. I hope that i can find a reliable solution for this issue as it's becoming very annoying lately. So annoying...

Life and its complexities....

Well, there are so many things that can go wrong and trust me if they can (even with 0.1% possibility), they will go wrong. Not being able to realize what has been happening for past few days, I have a very creepy feeling. I just don’t understand my thoughts and moreover I can not even make any sense of them. Just like an accident that puts the victim in a shocking position, I have been wounded by the high volume of different things and different feeling that I have been experiencing. I’m left with the hope to see and experience what I was considering as “Happiness”. The mind, itself and its logical analysis remain quite amazed with what heart and feeling can do to human’s body and soul. The soul, despite its meta-physical nature, can still cause a sensible/touchable kind of pain. So far, I can almost assure myself that there are a lot of hidden , but direct, connections between heart and soul and soul and mind. One should put the order as follow: You see things or hear things that you should not (because you know that they will affect you in a very bad way) , your heart will receive an “Unhappy” signal from your senses. It will pass the complain to your mind and mind will start complaining about some other semi-related issues. And when they see that no one cares, they both, at the same time and in an endless effort try to bother the soul. Soul , with a lot of capacity, starts receiving all the negative signals and soon will become overwhelmed. When soul reaches its limits and passes the pre-defined thresholds, (based on your previous experiences and also mindset and moreover the average of the market!) , it will start sending a lot of “Unhappy” signals to your heart and mind. Well, as you can probably predict, the story gets back to its beginning and starts all over again. We can call it an “infinite loop.” Cone and help me here. It’s your part to sit and imagine the rest of the story and if you get chance, drop me a line if you know of any solution that will send you out of this infinite loop.

Busy like hell........

I have been very busy for past few months that I even forgot that I might need to rest a little bit..

One Step Too Far

You can sleep forever
But still you will be tired
You can stay as cold as stone
But still you won't find peace
With you I feel I'm the meek leading the blind
With you I feel I'm just spending wasting time

I've been waiting
I'm still waiting
I've been waiting
I've been waiting
I've been waiting
I'm still waiting
I'm with you (with you)
It's always one step too far
One step too far

You can walk too far
But still you won't be found
You can look down on the world
But still you won't find love
You won't find love

Only with mellow
Are you thin enough to slide through.
If the sun or the moon should give way to doubt,
They would immediately go out.
One swallow don't make a summer,
But tomorrow has to start somewhere.
Only with mellow
Are you thin enough to slide through.
Only with mellow
Are you thin enough to slide through.
Don't Let nothing ride you
Only with mellow
Are you thin enough to slide through.
Don't Let nothing ride you
One swallow don't make a summer.

I've been waiting
I'm still waiting
I've been waiting
I've been waiting
I've been waiting
I'm still waiting
I'm with you (with you)
It's always one step too far
One step too far


By Dido

so many beautiful things...

Got up early, found something's missing
my only name.
No one else sees but I got stuck,
and soon forever came.
Stopped pushing on for just a second,
then nothing's changed.
Who am I this time, where's my name
I guess it crept away.

No one's calling for me at the door.
And unpredictable won't bother anymore.
And silently gets harder to ignore.
Look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
What's done is done, this life has got it's hold on me.
Just let it go, what now can never be.

I forgot that I might see,
So many beautiful things.
I forgot that I might need,
to find out what life could bring.

Take this happy ending away, it's all the same.
God won't waste this simplicity on possibility.
Get me up, wake me up, dreams are filling
this trace of blame.
Frozen still I thought I could stop,
now who's gonna wait.

No one's calling for me at the door.
and unpredictable won't bother anymore.
and silently gets harder to ignore.
look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
what's done is done, this life has got it's hold on me.
just let it go, what now can never be.

so many beautiful things...
so many beautiful things...

Now what do I do
can I change my mind
did I think things through

It was once my life
it was my life at one time

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Tiesto feat Andain - Beautiful Things

Miles And Miles

How time can fade away
there seems too much to say
we stumble through the day miles and miles
my heart cannot divide this feeling deep inside
how far from fear I lied miles and miles
still standing by this wall no sign of tears to fall
as long as you will call miles and miles
I search where love can grow and watch where bitter flow
am not afraid I know miles and miles ...




Schiller feat. Moya Brennan

Ticking Clocks

Lights go out and I can’t be saved
Tides that I tried to swim against
Brought me down upon my knees
Oh I beg, I beg and plead

Singin’, come out if things aren’t said
Shoot an apple off my head
And a, trouble that can’t be named
Tigers waitin’ to be tamed

Confusion never stops
Closing walls and ticking clocks
Gonna, come back and take you home
I could not stop that you now know

Singin’, come out upon my seas
Curse missed opportunities
Am I, a part of the cure
Or am I part of the disease
Oh nothing else compares
Oh nothing else compares
And nothing else compares

Home, home, where I wanted to go...


Coldplay - Clocks

Such a long night is tonight....

I'm walking alone in this dark nigh and I can think of so many things..
I can think of all the things that I wanted to have...
I can think of all the happy times that I was hoping to have...
I can think of those nights that brought me into this condition...
It was last year, when in few nights, I changed a huge path ....
I changed the path of my life...

For a better, happier, nicer, kinder life and tonight, here I'm...

If no one knows, i know that it takes a huge risk to love without knowing the end...
But a lover , takes this risk, A lover does a lot for his/her love

I do it for your love... Your love goes beyond all the logical theories which we have made. This love passes all the bridges...

It takes a pure love to play the game of love. A game , in which you may be the winner only if you play it.

It's raining and I know something important. It has been always raining during most important moments of my life...

One should never forget that : It's in your moments of decision that your destiny is shaped.

Let Me Love You -

I don't want you to give what you don't have
Don't make a vow that you can't keep
I don't want you to change your positions
Don't hang around just to please me
But I have one request
and if you don't think it`s senseless
let me give you something else


Let me love you
Let me love you
Free of all rituals, nothing habitual
Something you can save your teeth into
Let me love you..
Let me love you
Free of where have you been
Freedom what's take command
Something you can fall right back into
My love for you
my love for you..


We can go deep if you need to
I won't draw a line that fronts against you
Don't hold back if you are afraid to
A sensual sin is what awaits you
But i have one request
and if you don't think it`s senseless
let me give you something else


Let me love you
Let me love you
Free of all rituals, nothing habitual
Something you can save your teeth into
Let me love you
Let me love you
Free of where have you been
Freedom let's take command
Something you can fall right back into
My love for you
my love for you..

Song/lyric : Schiller

This time, FOR GOOD,,

This time, FOR GOOD,,
For YOUR GOOD, MY GOOD, and OUR OWN GOOD... I realized...
I trust in me,, I know you would too..
I trust u, I trust myself...
So let's fly and make the sky of this icy city , a sunny one forever and ever...

I love u..
Believe in US .. We make the best out of every moment, every movenent and we enjoy it until eternity...

Believe in me

When you chose to sail away
Now take a seat and stay forever
And make me stop counting the dates

Lately I heard you're doing well
Though I don't know how that feels

Believe in me - after all
Believe in me - and hear me call
There's a world behind these walls that I just need to see
Believe in me

Every dream that had been shattered
Disappears without a trace
Now that I've found what really matters, yeah
After you had gone away

Even though you had been doing well
Don't you hide behind a smile

And just believe in me
Believe in me
Believe in me
Believe in me

Believe in me - after all
Believe in me - and hear me call
There's a world behind these walls that I just need to see
Believe in me

ATB....

Above and Beyond.....

Slipping sideways, silver stars collide
And fade away just like our love that died
And there is nowhere in this universe to hide
From you tonight

I’ve wrestled with angels all my life
It’s always the haloes and the wings that keep you blind
And if I’d fought with all the strength I held inside
I wouldn’t be out here
Alone tonight

I wouldn’t be standing alone tonight
I wouldn’t be standing alone tonight

Alone tonight, just like the western star I’m sinking
The angels curse me blind with straight and crooked thinking
Alone tonight, just like the western star I’m sinking
The angels curse me blind with straight and crooked thinking