Busy like hell........

I have been very busy for past few months that I even forgot that I might need to rest a little bit..

One Step Too Far

You can sleep forever
But still you will be tired
You can stay as cold as stone
But still you won't find peace
With you I feel I'm the meek leading the blind
With you I feel I'm just spending wasting time

I've been waiting
I'm still waiting
I've been waiting
I've been waiting
I've been waiting
I'm still waiting
I'm with you (with you)
It's always one step too far
One step too far

You can walk too far
But still you won't be found
You can look down on the world
But still you won't find love
You won't find love

Only with mellow
Are you thin enough to slide through.
If the sun or the moon should give way to doubt,
They would immediately go out.
One swallow don't make a summer,
But tomorrow has to start somewhere.
Only with mellow
Are you thin enough to slide through.
Only with mellow
Are you thin enough to slide through.
Don't Let nothing ride you
Only with mellow
Are you thin enough to slide through.
Don't Let nothing ride you
One swallow don't make a summer.

I've been waiting
I'm still waiting
I've been waiting
I've been waiting
I've been waiting
I'm still waiting
I'm with you (with you)
It's always one step too far
One step too far


By Dido

so many beautiful things...

Got up early, found something's missing
my only name.
No one else sees but I got stuck,
and soon forever came.
Stopped pushing on for just a second,
then nothing's changed.
Who am I this time, where's my name
I guess it crept away.

No one's calling for me at the door.
And unpredictable won't bother anymore.
And silently gets harder to ignore.
Look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
What's done is done, this life has got it's hold on me.
Just let it go, what now can never be.

I forgot that I might see,
So many beautiful things.
I forgot that I might need,
to find out what life could bring.

Take this happy ending away, it's all the same.
God won't waste this simplicity on possibility.
Get me up, wake me up, dreams are filling
this trace of blame.
Frozen still I thought I could stop,
now who's gonna wait.

No one's calling for me at the door.
and unpredictable won't bother anymore.
and silently gets harder to ignore.
look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
what's done is done, this life has got it's hold on me.
just let it go, what now can never be.

so many beautiful things...
so many beautiful things...

Now what do I do
can I change my mind
did I think things through

It was once my life
it was my life at one time

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Tiesto feat Andain - Beautiful Things

Miles And Miles

How time can fade away
there seems too much to say
we stumble through the day miles and miles
my heart cannot divide this feeling deep inside
how far from fear I lied miles and miles
still standing by this wall no sign of tears to fall
as long as you will call miles and miles
I search where love can grow and watch where bitter flow
am not afraid I know miles and miles ...




Schiller feat. Moya Brennan

Ticking Clocks

Lights go out and I can’t be saved
Tides that I tried to swim against
Brought me down upon my knees
Oh I beg, I beg and plead

Singin’, come out if things aren’t said
Shoot an apple off my head
And a, trouble that can’t be named
Tigers waitin’ to be tamed

Confusion never stops
Closing walls and ticking clocks
Gonna, come back and take you home
I could not stop that you now know

Singin’, come out upon my seas
Curse missed opportunities
Am I, a part of the cure
Or am I part of the disease
Oh nothing else compares
Oh nothing else compares
And nothing else compares

Home, home, where I wanted to go...


Coldplay - Clocks

Such a long night is tonight....

I'm walking alone in this dark nigh and I can think of so many things..
I can think of all the things that I wanted to have...
I can think of all the happy times that I was hoping to have...
I can think of those nights that brought me into this condition...
It was last year, when in few nights, I changed a huge path ....
I changed the path of my life...

For a better, happier, nicer, kinder life and tonight, here I'm...

If no one knows, i know that it takes a huge risk to love without knowing the end...
But a lover , takes this risk, A lover does a lot for his/her love

I do it for your love... Your love goes beyond all the logical theories which we have made. This love passes all the bridges...

It takes a pure love to play the game of love. A game , in which you may be the winner only if you play it.

It's raining and I know something important. It has been always raining during most important moments of my life...

One should never forget that : It's in your moments of decision that your destiny is shaped.

Let Me Love You -

I don't want you to give what you don't have
Don't make a vow that you can't keep
I don't want you to change your positions
Don't hang around just to please me
But I have one request
and if you don't think it`s senseless
let me give you something else


Let me love you
Let me love you
Free of all rituals, nothing habitual
Something you can save your teeth into
Let me love you..
Let me love you
Free of where have you been
Freedom what's take command
Something you can fall right back into
My love for you
my love for you..


We can go deep if you need to
I won't draw a line that fronts against you
Don't hold back if you are afraid to
A sensual sin is what awaits you
But i have one request
and if you don't think it`s senseless
let me give you something else


Let me love you
Let me love you
Free of all rituals, nothing habitual
Something you can save your teeth into
Let me love you
Let me love you
Free of where have you been
Freedom let's take command
Something you can fall right back into
My love for you
my love for you..

Song/lyric : Schiller

This time, FOR GOOD,,

This time, FOR GOOD,,
For YOUR GOOD, MY GOOD, and OUR OWN GOOD... I realized...
I trust in me,, I know you would too..
I trust u, I trust myself...
So let's fly and make the sky of this icy city , a sunny one forever and ever...

I love u..
Believe in US .. We make the best out of every moment, every movenent and we enjoy it until eternity...

Believe in me

When you chose to sail away
Now take a seat and stay forever
And make me stop counting the dates

Lately I heard you're doing well
Though I don't know how that feels

Believe in me - after all
Believe in me - and hear me call
There's a world behind these walls that I just need to see
Believe in me

Every dream that had been shattered
Disappears without a trace
Now that I've found what really matters, yeah
After you had gone away

Even though you had been doing well
Don't you hide behind a smile

And just believe in me
Believe in me
Believe in me
Believe in me

Believe in me - after all
Believe in me - and hear me call
There's a world behind these walls that I just need to see
Believe in me

ATB....

Above and Beyond.....

Slipping sideways, silver stars collide
And fade away just like our love that died
And there is nowhere in this universe to hide
From you tonight

I’ve wrestled with angels all my life
It’s always the haloes and the wings that keep you blind
And if I’d fought with all the strength I held inside
I wouldn’t be out here
Alone tonight

I wouldn’t be standing alone tonight
I wouldn’t be standing alone tonight

Alone tonight, just like the western star I’m sinking
The angels curse me blind with straight and crooked thinking
Alone tonight, just like the western star I’m sinking
The angels curse me blind with straight and crooked thinking

1st April - New Day - New Age - New Habbit -

It was at my birthday that I realized something has been changed.

Something inside. I remember that I used to be a succesfull Manager (backhome) and I used to deal with 800 students and 40 personnels. Well, that was 5 years ago. Now, things are changed. I travelled from a developing country and I started a new life in North America--which from many aspects is much more developed that where I used to work....

When I started to adopt myself with this new culture and enviornment, I knew that it's a time-consuming process. It's an evolution and needs time.

Now, I feel that I can start. Well, i haven't started yet. I'm now planning for an start and that should happen soon.

Today i have started to count the minutes before I start. When I start, I see that goal will be achieved....It was easy last time, for sure, it will easier this time. I have all my expriences with me. Now it's time for a little bit more fun....

Start Point: Data to be transferred :

Stored in the DB : 5192 GB
Data on the session: 5000 GB
Ongoing Traffic : Amprox ~ 2000 GB/M

I will keep updating this data transfer log

Modern office technologies: hassle or relief?

Have computers given us more time to spend on our hobbies or have they stolen our peace of mind and increased our discomforts and difficulties in the workplace? Computers and information systems, Internet, public networks, and modern communications are key elements of a widespread and evolving phenomenon that can be called “Digital Evolution”. This dominating phenomenon is permeating to every aspect of our lives and will continue to change society and by extension the workplace. From the beginning of this evolution, we were told that Information and Communication Technology (ICT) was invented to simplify our work-life and decrease the complexity of our daily tasks.

Although ITCs have increased the speed of processes and automated many challenging and complex procedures, at the same time they have caused a variety of problems that never existed before. In some places such as IT companies, where IT technologies are playing a critical role, human and computer interaction can be very stressful. In this human-to-computer interaction, it is the computer that will not rest, will not feel, and will not succumb to stress. The anxiety and tension caused by ITC is not what we were promised and advertised by the media. Ads in newspapers and magazines, commercials on TV, and giant posters on billboards all brag about how perfect technology is and often conceal the disadvantages that ITC and ITC alone can bring along.
In contrast to public media, scientific researchers are more conscious about advantages and disadvantages of innovative and modern technologies. If the major goal of ICT is to assist people with their difficulties and consequently decrease their stress level, this goal has not yet been accomplished. In fact, ICT is causing far more anxiety and tension than helping us pave our way to an easy and stress-free life.
According to the 2000 General Social Survey (GSS) of Statistics Canada, nearly 60% of Canadian workers have used computer in their workplace. Moreover, a comparison between GSS 2000 and GSS 1993 shows a 100% growth in the usage of computers and modern technologies at the workplace. In spite of the fact that ITC requires operational skills, its fast growth has caused a tremendous demand for people and organizations to increase their computer and IT skills. In most places, people are expected to know how to operate computers, printers, advanced phones and digital devices. Emails, internet-based communications, and online meetings and presentations are now part of our daily tasks. In an atmosphere that companies and organizations are tightly competing for technological advantages by adopting new ICTs, workers frequently find themselves being surrounded by new technologies and devices that require technical knowledge and skills. In such a demanding environment, “Survival of the fittest” can be read as “Survival of the most-skilled”. In view of the fact that acquiring computer and IT skills is a challenge, it has become a nightmare for a vast number of workers. In fact, a significant amount of workplace stress is associated with the need to learn new ITC skills.

In addition to all the anxiety generated by ITCs, technical failures are not any of help to our hectic lives.Companies and organizations are relying on new technologies so much so that computers and digital systems are taking the control of information flow and business directions. In such environment, computers are the corner stone of communication and procedures. This means that if a technical problem occurs, a huge part of an automated process will fail and this failure causes many consequences such as loss of data, delay or failure in projects, passing deadlines, etc. Each one of the mentioned issues can be held responsible for an immense amount of stress in the work place.

As an IT manager for an IT-based company, I have seen a huge difference between practical and theoretical point of views in IT industry. In theory, we always consider the bright part in which computers and digital devices behave logically and productively. Well, that is not the case when it comes to reality. Implementation of modern technologies can be more complex than what we often see in our estimates and designs, and therefore their consequences can go beyond our predictions. Computers and information technologies are changing our today’s life style and shaping our future. If we were to compare our lives with those of our parents, we would realize that we are experiencing a much harder life and a busier age than they did so without relying on all these sophisticated technologies.

how many mistakes?

how many mistakes? how many times? how many times should i feel like shit because of other's performance? how many fucking times should i hate my self because of other's perfromance? I hate work group. It's nothing but a shame for those they understand better than the others in a team.

Nice Quote

Robert Herrick in "Noble Numbers" says:


Maybe this world is another planet's hell.

MAD?

No great genius has ever existed without some touch of madness.
Aristotle

I don't mind failure

"nil moror defeciendum; sciam me conatus esse"
(I don't mind failure ; I will know myself to have tried - Oneiros)