Above and Beyond.....

Slipping sideways, silver stars collide
And fade away just like our love that died
And there is nowhere in this universe to hide
From you tonight

I’ve wrestled with angels all my life
It’s always the haloes and the wings that keep you blind
And if I’d fought with all the strength I held inside
I wouldn’t be out here
Alone tonight

I wouldn’t be standing alone tonight
I wouldn’t be standing alone tonight

Alone tonight, just like the western star I’m sinking
The angels curse me blind with straight and crooked thinking
Alone tonight, just like the western star I’m sinking
The angels curse me blind with straight and crooked thinking

1st April - New Day - New Age - New Habbit -

It was at my birthday that I realized something has been changed.

Something inside. I remember that I used to be a succesfull Manager (backhome) and I used to deal with 800 students and 40 personnels. Well, that was 5 years ago. Now, things are changed. I travelled from a developing country and I started a new life in North America--which from many aspects is much more developed that where I used to work....

When I started to adopt myself with this new culture and enviornment, I knew that it's a time-consuming process. It's an evolution and needs time.

Now, I feel that I can start. Well, i haven't started yet. I'm now planning for an start and that should happen soon.

Today i have started to count the minutes before I start. When I start, I see that goal will be achieved....It was easy last time, for sure, it will easier this time. I have all my expriences with me. Now it's time for a little bit more fun....

Start Point: Data to be transferred :

Stored in the DB : 5192 GB
Data on the session: 5000 GB
Ongoing Traffic : Amprox ~ 2000 GB/M

I will keep updating this data transfer log

Modern office technologies: hassle or relief?

Have computers given us more time to spend on our hobbies or have they stolen our peace of mind and increased our discomforts and difficulties in the workplace? Computers and information systems, Internet, public networks, and modern communications are key elements of a widespread and evolving phenomenon that can be called “Digital Evolution”. This dominating phenomenon is permeating to every aspect of our lives and will continue to change society and by extension the workplace. From the beginning of this evolution, we were told that Information and Communication Technology (ICT) was invented to simplify our work-life and decrease the complexity of our daily tasks.

Although ITCs have increased the speed of processes and automated many challenging and complex procedures, at the same time they have caused a variety of problems that never existed before. In some places such as IT companies, where IT technologies are playing a critical role, human and computer interaction can be very stressful. In this human-to-computer interaction, it is the computer that will not rest, will not feel, and will not succumb to stress. The anxiety and tension caused by ITC is not what we were promised and advertised by the media. Ads in newspapers and magazines, commercials on TV, and giant posters on billboards all brag about how perfect technology is and often conceal the disadvantages that ITC and ITC alone can bring along.
In contrast to public media, scientific researchers are more conscious about advantages and disadvantages of innovative and modern technologies. If the major goal of ICT is to assist people with their difficulties and consequently decrease their stress level, this goal has not yet been accomplished. In fact, ICT is causing far more anxiety and tension than helping us pave our way to an easy and stress-free life.
According to the 2000 General Social Survey (GSS) of Statistics Canada, nearly 60% of Canadian workers have used computer in their workplace. Moreover, a comparison between GSS 2000 and GSS 1993 shows a 100% growth in the usage of computers and modern technologies at the workplace. In spite of the fact that ITC requires operational skills, its fast growth has caused a tremendous demand for people and organizations to increase their computer and IT skills. In most places, people are expected to know how to operate computers, printers, advanced phones and digital devices. Emails, internet-based communications, and online meetings and presentations are now part of our daily tasks. In an atmosphere that companies and organizations are tightly competing for technological advantages by adopting new ICTs, workers frequently find themselves being surrounded by new technologies and devices that require technical knowledge and skills. In such a demanding environment, “Survival of the fittest” can be read as “Survival of the most-skilled”. In view of the fact that acquiring computer and IT skills is a challenge, it has become a nightmare for a vast number of workers. In fact, a significant amount of workplace stress is associated with the need to learn new ITC skills.

In addition to all the anxiety generated by ITCs, technical failures are not any of help to our hectic lives.Companies and organizations are relying on new technologies so much so that computers and digital systems are taking the control of information flow and business directions. In such environment, computers are the corner stone of communication and procedures. This means that if a technical problem occurs, a huge part of an automated process will fail and this failure causes many consequences such as loss of data, delay or failure in projects, passing deadlines, etc. Each one of the mentioned issues can be held responsible for an immense amount of stress in the work place.

As an IT manager for an IT-based company, I have seen a huge difference between practical and theoretical point of views in IT industry. In theory, we always consider the bright part in which computers and digital devices behave logically and productively. Well, that is not the case when it comes to reality. Implementation of modern technologies can be more complex than what we often see in our estimates and designs, and therefore their consequences can go beyond our predictions. Computers and information technologies are changing our today’s life style and shaping our future. If we were to compare our lives with those of our parents, we would realize that we are experiencing a much harder life and a busier age than they did so without relying on all these sophisticated technologies.

how many mistakes?

how many mistakes? how many times? how many times should i feel like shit because of other's performance? how many fucking times should i hate my self because of other's perfromance? I hate work group. It's nothing but a shame for those they understand better than the others in a team.

Nice Quote

Robert Herrick in "Noble Numbers" says:


Maybe this world is another planet's hell.

MAD?

No great genius has ever existed without some touch of madness.
Aristotle

I don't mind failure

"nil moror defeciendum; sciam me conatus esse"
(I don't mind failure ; I will know myself to have tried - Oneiros)

Little Prince

When I first read the Little Prince, I was 14 and since then, I read it every year. It's amazing how the meaning of this book has been changed everytime that I have read it. Everytime, I have found new examples matching with what the story is talking about and it seems that the whole society is making more mistakes as time goes by. Each year , I find more struggles, more issues, more complexities and less global happiness. Where are we going? I don't know if anyone knows but i bet even leaders have no idea either. one question that the answer matters a lot is:





How many sunshine have you seen in the past few weeks?


oh noooooooo, you can't blame the cloudy sky.........

I trust in what you said....

That hurts.....

When we are always together..
when we know how much we love eachother...
when we see that everything in our life is better when we are together....
when you see that I really love you...
when I know that you really love me...

why do you turn your face.
I wish you ...............
I wish you ...............

That hurts when you............
That makes me sad when you.....

Cold is the night, Cold are my hands, cold is my heart....
I keep the pain and no one would know... no one knows, not even you.....


You came to see me, but , but , you decided not to talk to me... that hurts...
I keep the pain and no one would know... no one knows, not even ............

Nice days

These days are nice days. I have what I want and I can gain what i need.
These days are nice days. I'm calm and no one bothers me.
These days are nice days. My life is the product of my own development and almost no external power is managing it.
These days are nice days. I live in a lovely city which makes our life easier.
These days are nice days. Because You are with me and I do everything possible to keep you forever.
These days are nice days. Because you are mine and mine and mine.
These days are nice days and will be nice forever, as long as you are with me.





My dear, my darling, Thanks for bringing all this happiness into my life.
I will be thankful forever.

Sa(lman+xx)

I need you.....

I need you….

In the whole world, I have no one to get back to if you are not with me……

In all my nights, I have no moon in the sky if you are not with me….

In all my life, I have no happiness if you are not with me…

All my dreams will be nightmares if you are not with me….

Oh my heart, it will be broken if you are not with me….

Oh my hands, they will be craving for your sense if you are not with me….

MY body, my soul, they hate me if you are not with me….

I need you…

EVERYTHING that I have will be gone if you are not with me….

This is my declaration

This is my declaration for the true love that I have found. Your respect for my love and personal life is highly appreciated and I believe those they really like me, like to see me happy and successful. Again I thank you all for understanding this fact.

Truly Yours,
Salman

Another day in heaven

You woke me up.
You called my name.
You touched my hands..
You kissed my lips...
You were in my arms..
You put your head on my shoulder.....
You held me tight...

We shared the best we could....
And I was in heaven...

Tell me that you know

Antoine De Saint-Exupery is the author of the best book that I have ever read
“Little princes”. He says

“True love begins when nothing is looked for in return."

This is to my real, true, endless love:


Tell me that you know that I’m your lover…
Tell me that you know that I have been in love with you…
Tell me that you know that I’m your Romeo….
Tell me that I’m your faithful lover…
Tell me that you know If you ever ask me, nothing is beyond me….
Tell me that you know that you will be mine…
Tell me that you will be with me till end of life, till end of this world.

Please Come to me and let me see your eyes.
Please Come to me, My eyes are in love with your face…

I want to look at your face for years and years….

Without you, I was looking at the sky and there was no sun , there was no moon, there was no happiness and I was alone….

Tell me that you have accepted my love…
Tell me that you have accepted my heart…
Tell me that you have accepted my soul…
Tel me that you have accepted my hands….

Without you, there would be no way to tomorrow.
Without you, there would be no sun, no moon, no night, no day….


Tell me that you love me…
Tell me that I’m yours…
Tell me that you have accepted my life….

This is the life I want to live forever…..

Your hands are close to me…..
I can smell your smile…..
I can look at your eyes forever…
I can hear your voice, your heavenly voice…..
I can kiss your lips….
I can touch your body…
I can feel your soul…
I can kiss your smile…
I can hear your heartbeat…
I can hear you breathing….
I can be with you longer than time
I can be yours longer than time
We can be together for more than centuries….
We have been together for more than one life…..

And now, again if you are here forever……….
I will be leaving in heaven forever…

I woke you up....

I was looking at you when you were leaving and I knew that I will miss you.
Eventhough I spent all my evening with you, I knew I will miss you in few minutes.
You were on your way back home when I missed you.

I was with my family but I was alone. My shoulders were asking for you.
My heart was beating for you. My sould was craving for you.

The very first moment that I found, I called you and woke you up. Your voice brought me happiness. Oh honey, I wish you were here, I would hold you tight forever. I wish you were here, you are my love, you are my love...

I need you more than anything in my life

Honey,

This is for you.

I want to tell you that I love you more than anything in this world.
I want to tell you that I need you more than anything in this world.
Without you, there would be no me, there would be no happiness, there would be no life, there would be no light.
Without you, my world will be dark forever. Thanks for coming to my life...


I'm in love....

You are the only one…..

I was waiting for some one special, some one extra ordinary, some on exceptional

I knew that one day, you would come through my door and I knew that this would happen to me…

I knew that I would fall in love and you knew that you would fall in love….

I knew that I have waited for so long but I didn’t know that you would be waiting for so long too…

I knew that my heart is really kind , but I never knew that there is a kinder heart too,

I knew that your heart is kind, but I didn’t know that your heart is the kindest one…

I knew that we can change everything, but I never knew we can do it without changing our self….

I knew that I will be yours but I was only hoping if you could be mine….

Now, I know that your are mine and you are the only one….

2:00 AM here in Toronto

it's 2:00 AM here in Toronto. You are not here but you are in my heart.
I’m looking at the sky and its clouds. I can see the moon light …..
It’s the same moon that I was watching few hours ago when I was sitting close to you. Still it’s there. I know that somewhere in this city, you are thinking about me. I look at the moon, I hope you can see the moon too. It’s waiting for us to reach it. If I were with you, we could go to sunset beach and then we could look at the moon. You know that over there, I will have two moons to look at.
I choose the one that is closer to me.

When you are with me, I don’t need anything else.
I will be with you for the rest of my life.
I will follow you wherever you lead me.
I will be your heart’s guest for the rest of my life.
I will be lost in your eyes.
I choose to be with……


Your heart, your eyes, your soul and your body…
One day, soon, they will be mine…..

All I neeeded, All i need, all i will need
is you....

Salman ... 2:00 AM