Back to back ....

5 mins ago in Riva working on a steak , now at Utopia waiting for a nacho....oh i forgot to mention 3 out of 8 is remaining....

8 per yaer

8 times per year agreed.....
More than 8 times will be considered cheating......Coco and Karma will testify on that....

Such a jerk...

Well I don't need to keep failing on this subject over and over again. I should have known better this time. Afterall, some people never change (even if they pretend). This time was my bad as I truested and I was betrayed. 

The worst part is that if someone is faking a commitment you rely on this commitment and block all your other options....

Such a shame....but wait, Karma is here......

Missing You......

Missing you second by second...
It's a quite Sunday the same as the quite Friday night.

Your perfume is still in the air....
the world without you is not a happy world. It's not a crowded world. Rather, as cold as Toronto's winter and as deadth as hope in hopeless's hearts.

Without you my love, my heart is a city without any light, no moon in the night, no sun in the day.


Nothing to explore, nothing to be excited about and nothing to enjoy. After all, we learned sharing is the best was of enjoying life.


a life without your touch...without your voice...without your smile..... is not worth living...

Miss u

Miss u so much, can't sleep, can't enjoy,can't breath , can't do anything. Letting u go is Million times harder than what i thought... You belong here and this is your life. Not mine .

Internet Speed

This is just for the record, I am at school and in "Communication Studies" lab and here is the Internet speed!!!

MARKUS SCHULZ FT. ANA DIAZ - Nothing Without Me

All I am
All I know
Is hanging by the thinnest thread

If you leave
If you go
I might as well be gone, be dead

I’m the bad
I’m the waterfall in your head
I’m the know it all
I will never leave you alone

Cause you know
You know we belong together
And we’re only strong together
You are nothing without me

If you run
You’ll be on the run forever
I will haunt your mind forever
You are nothing without me
Send "Nothing Without Me" Ringtone to your Cell

12-12-12 12:12:12

We should never forget this moment.

Good Part: We are in love.
Bad Part: The next time same thing happens (same two digitis for day, month, year and time), we will not be around (At least not in this body).

Unusual Monday

Thanks to york, no classes today. Therefore we are at 3 brewers and this was my drink after a pitcher for two.

Harbour walk

A night with a glass of single malt.....

Relax.

Have been thinking if things really get that bad that i can think of? May be not. Next time anger recepie : sa(lman+ra) , tania , 10 mins walk . Lets see.

Greatest news everrrrrrr

Congrats , finally after 10 years :)))))))

Annoying....

...Pretty annoying situation....

Some time you feel that you can't take it any more....
and you will be amazed how much capacity you have ....
and you will be surprised by how much you can ignore.....
and you will be impressed by how many problems you can handle...


Neuroscience is an annoying thing to deal with..............

At La Prep working on Cisco ZetaByte era

6:45 am, bold coffee and lots of things to do ;)

Home: sweet home

Finally it's getting to a shape that we can call it home. been a long time ... a lot of work.. a lot of trial and fail and a lot of learnings... The last part was good as it can be reused.

at SecondCup working on Rough Consensus and Running Code’ paper.

http://www.davidellis.ca/wp-content/uploads/2010/10/Russell-running-code1.pdf

Simba

Simba was chosen as his name

He has golden fur and when he grows he will be 6 to 9 lbs. . The name "Simba" comes from the Swahili word for lion. 

Glorious days

Nice quote on a wall @ Queen St

If it doesnt work for you, it doesn't mean that it's broken .

Going to Chapters to work on Forensic paper :)

Interesting

Whatever the reason may be, the  persistence  of religion in the modern world
appears as an embarrassment to the scholars  of today

Jack astors nachos

A late but perfect meal ...

Enjoyed talking and sharing...

Dinner / Desert

Toronto in May

I like it that while we are busy with our daily tasks and business, someone's business is to bring a new look to our neighborhoods. Here is what I'm talking about:

Banana

Meanwhile in our math class...

Back to life

After few months of hardwork,things are back to normal.on our way to shopping ...(and yes, that is not for home ! )

New Statistics on Data Transfers

Stored in the DB : 6000 GB 
Data on the session: 2000 GB 
Ongoing Traffic : Approx ~ 3000 GB/M

WHC

A life-changing event, a new era of our life has begun. After few months of hard work, it felt really good this morning, when I opened my eyes and I saw a smile on my sunshine's face. It was worth trying and it was worth keeping up the hard work.

Dark clouds slide away and the light at the end of tunnel brightened our life. Let the morning sun proclaim. Here , I let the following lyrics to tell the rest of the story. (thanks for Blank and Jones).

Let the morning sun proclaim

The light of the world

Let the golden day unfurl

On every way

On every hill

Each angered fist uncurl

Caress the hardest heart

Stir the sleeping earth

Each stone

Each blade of grass

The soul of the world

Ignite a brand new day

Let the morning sun proclaim

A brand new start

Caress the hardest heart

Caress The Hardest Heart

Let the morning sun proclaim

The light of the world

Let the golden day unfurl

On every wave

On every hill

Each angered fist uncurl

Caress the hardest heart

Stir the sleeping earth

Each stone

Each blade of grass

The soul of the world

Ignite a brand new day

Let the morning sun proclaim

A brand new start

Caress the hardest heart

Caress the hardest heart

Caress the hardest heart

The soul of the world

Ignite a brand new day

Let the morning sun proclaim

A brand new start

A brand new way...

2-day vacations

We just realized that a short trip to Niagara can be pretty damn refreshing.Good to know....

Toronto weather has been amazing this winter. Most of the times , I have been able to walk (short distances) in my shirt without wearing a coat.

What happened to -40 ? global warming might know the answer?!

Resolution for New Year

Surprisingly, my new resolution in the year of 2012 has nothing to do with what I thought I should do in 2012. It started by noticing the fact that I do not notice how serious I think of my problems and how my mind always generates a halo of complexity around a problem which may not be as complex as it looks all or may not be as important as I take it. I have always followed the advice of scholars and have tried to apply what they have had to say. One of the major guidelines of my life has been the following Einstein quote:

“Problems cannot be solved by the same level of thinking that created them.” Albert Einstein

However, my understanding of the above quote was that to solve a problem effectively, one must built a higher level of thinking in which the problem can be analyzed by all its related elements. A creative mind may – silently – add a few unreasonable elements to such problem and make it a more complex and complicated problem. There is no proof that complex problems can be only solved by solutions that are more complex than these problems. Therefore, even complex problems may have simple solutions. A thinker who sees the problem the way that the problem is and tries to find the simplest yet most effective way of dealing with it is what I call a “Happy Thinker”. One of my main resolutions in the year of 2012 is to understand/adopt and apply this method if thinking.....

Upsetting situation...

Just wanted to write down about few things that are really bothering me right now.

- Alex is taking a lot of my mind and I just don't know the consequences of not having him...

- I wish there was an easy way to get a replacement for him

- I really want to find another Alex for us but it just seem impossible right now as we have other priorities.

Maybe these are the last few years that we are struggling for these things. I came to work and I was already really tired. The whole night I was thinking about what Ifs !

I went to imgfave, "Make me think" collection and saw tens of them to see if they can make me feel better . I guess it's my defense mechanism towards annoying feelings. I feel a bit better now.

I hope in few years, when I check this post again, I see our life at a different stage.

To Alex: You were kind to us and we will always remember you.

Washington D.C

I had a very busy week in Maryland and Virginia...on my way to Washington Dulles Airport I witnessed one of the worst thunderstorms that I have ever seen, It was pretty much the kind of tropical storms that I saw in Mexico. Due to crazy weather situation, our flight had almost 4 hours delay and I got to Toronto really late.

Here are some related pictures....

Nothing left to go wrong .............

These days, I'm often bothered with a mixture of sad or rather unwanted feelings. so far, I wonder if all these feelings are caused by real factors or some are simply just made by my creative imagination. (creative in creating problems that do not really exist or may not happen! ) . Another reason could be the fact that I have heard at least one shocking news every other day.... the only good thing is soon there will be nothing left and of course nothing can go wrong when there is nothing left ....... It all reminds me of this amazing quote:

To where should I go ?

To right , wherer there is nothing left....
Or
To left, where there is nothing right

I will stay with you tonight

I will stay with you tonight
Keep you safe from all you hide
All we were was just a dream…

Here our past is left behind
Now our paths are intertwined
All we were and all we’ll be…

(Now…) I’ll keep it all alight
When there’s nobody out there
When you’re far beyond the waves
I will bring you air…

I will stay with you tonight
Keep you safe from all you hide
All we were was just a dream…

A thousand lives we’ve lived til now
All this beauty that surrounds
All we were and all we seek…

(Now…) I’ll keep it all alight
Make sure you find the way
When you feel you are nowhere…

I’ll keep it all alight
When there’s nobody out there
When you’re far beyond the waves
I will bring you air…

I will bring you air



Source: Marcus Schossow & Andy Duguid feat. Emma Hewitt

Earth - An unfair Place

We all know the eveloution theory and we know that It's about the survival of the fittest and not the survival of the best. well that indicates that life is all about survival and it's easy to imagine that survival is all about competition. Hence a massive competiton is going on and since we are not all identical, we have to use our given power and features to compete better. This effor makes the world and unfair place to live in.

Past few weeks......Mean of the mean is the mean...

OMG! past few weeks have been very very crazy for me as I have had a very busy work-related life and also a lot of assignments for STATS. A fast-track course in statistics requires one assignment every thursday while each assignment takes between 10 to 15 hours. Anyhow , tomorrow will be the end of it and I'm counting seconds for 10:00 pm when I hand-in my paper. For today, I will be reviewing "Statistical siginificane", "Interval estimates for Mean and population proportion", z and t distribtutions, normal and binomial distribution. Continues and Discrete r.vs and hypothesis testing and the mean of the sample mean which is the mean and it is mean to mean that you don't know what I mean.

The Prophet

The amazing art of writing has seen its height in this book. Like a brook that sings its songs to your soul, each of its unveling sermons preaches unique ideas that satisfies human hunger for the truth!

Done with Exams+....

Wow..Finally, one of the best feelings in the world is to feel free from obligations...Past few weeks has been really crazy in my life and I have not been able to focus on my hobbies which is a bit sad....but I had no other options. I had to arrange so many things and moreover than anything, exams and assignments were driving me crazy. last night I wrote the exam for Organization Behavior which was my last FW2010-2011 course. Looking up to summer for more research and I have an appoinment with Grad School director in the coming week.. It paves my way for the future... (fingers crossed)...

Germany Trip

We came to Germany last week as we were visiting CeBIT. We had a flight from Toronto to Munich and another one from Munich to Hannover. We met a nice German family and they invited us to their AMAZING small town called Heidesheim. WE WILL NEVER FORGET THIS CITY.

Tomorrow, we are going to London, UK and from there we will go to Sheffield.

A snapshot of my life in 27 Jan 2011

Started working on a replication at 8:30 AM and have been busy since then. I don't know if I was ready for this much load but I got to handle it anyway. This week, starting Saturday (a trip to colocation for 8 hours) was one of the worst weeks of my life so far. Living in a IT war zone, have seen attacks from almost anywthere. From team members to customers . School also had made sure that I get enought problems. Two assignments were appointed this week and I have to wrap them up before i head to Germany. Anyhow, that's what is it for now and I got to deal with it....

5 am going to work with 97 bluenight

Challenges of Business

Looking at the recent business catastrophes and corruptions, one must ask that what’s going on in our business sector. While the general belief indicates that with so many business experts and MBAs in the market, business health should be improved, evidences and stats show otherwise. Business corruption is not a new product and has been around for centuries. To understand the underlying reasons that cause business corruption we should examine components that are affecting business in general. One these elements are established and definitions are stabilized, we can see their impact on business growth or failure.
Every business at one point or another is dealing with internal and external factors. These factors are divided to three group of General, Specific and Internal. “General environment”, as an external factor and being the widest one, is the part that consists of six key forces. We can say that all businesses are almost equally exposed to these general factors. Here they are:
1. Economic forces (downsizing, bankruptcies, recession, boom, exchange rates, interest rates)
2. Political forces ( New regulations, de-regulations , border regulations)
3. Competitive forces (pure competition, monopoly, oligopoly)
4. Technological forces
5. Global forces (9-11, SARS, Hurricanes, Trade agreements such as NAFTA , climate change)
6. Societal forces (societal norms, values, ethical beliefs, demographic changes)
The second group of elements which are closer to the kernel of business is the “specific group” . This group consists of parties and groups that have a direct influence on the business. Here are the most important parties:
• Customers
• Suppliers
• Labor pool
• Competitors
• Unions
• Resellers/Agents/Distributes
• Local public
• Media
• Local and federal Government

This group sometimes is called “Stakeholders environment”. This becomes more clear when stakeholders are defined as “individuals or groups with whom business interacts and who have a stake , or vested interest in the business” .
The third group, which contains elements insides the organization is called “Internal environment” . Three major parties that form the internal environment are as follow:

1- People – People Management
2- Business strategy
3- Business Structure


Business and social responsibility:
There is no doubt that every business’s primary goal is to provide goods and services in a profitable manner. Although a lot of business efforts are focused on fiscal activities, there is a societal aspect of the business that some companies fail to provision. This aspect consists of:

• Environmental issues
• Bribery and corruption
• Workplace condition
• Product liability
• Political influence
• Ethical issues
Despite the old and common belief that business and ethics are not heavily interrelated, the recent trend indicates that there is a demand from society for businesses to act ethically. With the growth of media and its coverage, a lot of ethical or unethical behaviors of business have been exposed to the public and has resulted in a dramatic change in society-business relation. Corporate Social Responsibility (CSR) refers to those obligation and responsibilities of an organization that goes beyond the production of good/services and acting within the legal framework.

Day-by-day execution...

It seems to be better when you try to make the best of everyday. Have been doing it lately and it sounds better to me. Not a very big fan of long-term schedules. Well the goals and hobbies have to be clear, however it feels more practical if you focus on execution of each day separately.

Love...

No matter how great my math get,I still can't calculate the amount that I love you..

Amazing Quote

You know where to find me....

A very nice trance song...

Sunlounger Ft Kyler England – Change Your Mind

When you kiss me, it feels so real
then the daylight comes, off you run, and i don’t know how to feel
there’s a fire underneath your skin
but it’s getting old, out here in the cold, ’cause you won’t let me in

when you hold me, i can hear your heart
beating loud and clear, without fear, but you chose a moment that we part

you and i could fly, baby we could be so high if you just let go
but you’re too busy keeping two feet on the ground and keeping one hand on the door

when you change your mind
you know where to find me
when you change your mind, baby
you know where to find me

you and i could fly, baby we could be so high if you just let go
but you’re too busy keeping two feet on the ground and keeping one hand on the door

when you change your mind (it feels so real)
you know where to find me
when you change your mind (when you kiss me, baby)
you know where to find me

when you change your mind
you know where to find me
when you change your mind, baby
you know where to find me

Propositional Logic....∃xP ( x ) and ∀xP ( x )

Sometimes, this is exactly what I'm doing....

Looking for time...

I have been looking for sometime now to see if i can get any extra time to spend it on my hobbies and favorites. so far, nothing good has happened. I found it easier to look at one day and trying to make the best of it rather than looking at a month or a week. Will see if i can make the best of each day. Will write it down here in a week or two...

Also, i came across a very deep quote from Einstein:

"As our circle of knowledge expands, so does the circumference of darkness surrounding it."


Gota learn alot of things from the above quote.

Math and loving it....

Thanks to my dear professor Dr. Eli Brettler.I'm now involved with mathematical perspectives and it seems to be really relaxing... it just makes sense and it really does!

happy to have this new point of view... You should be a number to feel and understand the touch of mathematical expressions on your shoulder... You can be 2 , you can be 4 , you can be -1 . Whatever you are, be something special. Live and love the way that life as an expression deals with you.. leave yourself in its hands and for sure it will take you away....

Amazing Quote---Unknown author....

I will never say anything that couldn’t stand as the last thing I ever say.

A mind that is stretched by a new experience

Being busy with a lot of open projects at work and school has made me a bit tired. I get off work and have to go to school. I finish an exam at school and I have to deal with a tight deadline at work. Sometimes, I want to “pause” what’s going on around me and go and walk for couple of hours. I need to get my thoughts organized and defragged. I feel a subtle touch of fear in missing deadlines or missing important tasks. I’m always repeating/reviewing my Todo’s list in an effort to prevent any missed task. I hope I can stretch my mind over all these tasks and get to a level where I can handle
Multi- Multi -tasking .

As Oliver Wendell Holmes puts: A mind that is stretched by a new experience can never go back to its old dimensions.

Just a reminder for myself

17 Again
21
21 grams
24 Redemption
2012
40 Years old virgin.
Australia
Avatar
A beautiful Mind
American History X
Bee Movie
Blod and Bone
Bolt
Bride Wars
Brüno
Burn After Reading
Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs
Crash
Date Night
Dinner for Schmucks
Eagle Eye
Face Off
Fast & Furious
Felon
Fight Club
Forgetting Sarah Marshall
From Paris with love
Get Smart
Get rich or die trying..
Ghosts of Girlfriends Past
GOODFellas
Green Zone
Harry Potter - All
Hancock
He's Just Not That into You
Horton Hears a Who!
How to Lose Friends & Alienate People
how to tame your dragon
Idiocracy
Inception
Invention of Lying.
James Bond
Jaws
Knocked Up
Legends of the Fall
Legend of the Guardians: The Owls of Ga'Hoole
Léon
Love Happens
Machete
Madagascar
Memento
Munich
Million Dollar Baby
Monsters vs. Aliens
Night at the Museum: Battle of the Smithsonian
Ocean 11,12,13
One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest
Paul Blart: Mall Cop
Paycheck (2003)
Pineapple Express
Proposal
Phonebooth
Quantum Of Solace
Remember Me
Secondhand Lion
Sideways
Sin City
Slumdog Millionaire
Star Trek
Shrek 1,2,3 , Final Chapter
Terminator Salvation

Training Day
The Dark Knight
The Fast And The Furious-Tokyo
The Fighter
The Girlfriend Experience
The Hangover
The Happening
The Illusionist
The International
The Italian Job
The Matrix
The NoteBook
The Rumor has it
The Thornbird
The Pianist
The Shawshank Redemption
The Sea Inside
The Unthinkable
Toy Story 3 3D
Up
Up in the Air
Valkyrie
WALL·E
Wanted
Wedding Crasher
When in Rome..
Wrong Turn
Zack and Miri Make a Porno

Lesiëm-- Britannia

Angelus O Britanicus
Angelicus deus
Aurora musis amica
Britannia sacra
Angelus O Britanicus
Angelicus deus
Aurora musis amica
Britannia sacra
You’re my heart, you’re my soul and my dream.
Sailing ship on the ocean of mean.
Battlefields filled with blood and with pain,
but I still hold your flag without shame
Want your love …
Get your pain …
Angelus O Britanicus
Angelicus deus
Aurora musis amica
Britannia sarca

Promise day. _ JAN 17

Promise day.

Sirens of the sea

Follow me, follow me yeah let's go
To the sand, to the sand, the purest sand
Into the sea, into the sea yeah let's go

Out beyond the water's edge
Far out past the coral bench
Underneath the diamond dancing lights
Chase the world from far below
Silence sleeping in the glow
Drifting down into the endless night

Take my hand, take my hand yeah take my hand
Follow me, follow me yeah let's go
To the sand, to the sand, the purest sand
Into the sea, into the sea yeah let's go

Leaving reason far behind
Nothing here is cruel or kind
Only your desire to set me free
Let us lie here all alone
Worn away like river stone
Let us be the sirens of the sea

OCEAN LAB-

I Miss YOU

I miss you...
where are you now?
I miss you...
where have you gone?
waiting the whole life for you...
i miss you and i need you...

it was raining when i left and it's still raining
I kiss you...

looking at the trees.. \i see how my love for you has grown and how it has thousands of versions ... nevertheless, the root is still the same simple fact that I love you.

I miss you in thousands ways..in thousands miles...

UK/Shieffield

Manifest your life...

Sa(lman+ra) will work on a new task which will be manifesting our life.

I bet we will learn so many new things about eachother.

Data Transfer Log...

Start Point: Data to be transferred :(Tuesday, April 01, 2008)



Stored in the DB : 5192 GB
Data on the session: 5000 GB
Ongoing Traffic : Approx ~ 2000 GB/M




(Monday, Nov 02, 2009)



Stored in the DB : 25500 GB
Data on the session: 2000 GB
Ongoing Traffic : Approx ~ 3000 GB/M

Just a reminder for myself about the TV series...

1) HIMYM --> End of Season 5


















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2) The office --> Up to end of season 4




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3) 24 --> Up to end of Season 5

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4) Friends --> Completed.




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5) The big Bang Theory --> up to end of season 3.



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6) Gossip Girl --> End of Season 3





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7) Two and a Half Men --> End of Episode 15 of Season 7


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8) Entourage --> End of Season 6


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9) 30 Rock --> End of Season 1




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10) It's always sunny in Philadephia --> End of Season 1

Business administration

It takes so much effort and work to make a successful business. Not knowing that, can make you work 24 * 7 and not even achieving half of your goals . You should stand up for your goals and it's hard but fruitful. Made a decision long time ago but never had a chance to dedicate my energy for it. It's excellent implementation of Information Technology. It's IT with the highest possible EXCELLENCE.

Fingers crossed ....

A place like hell........

In my imagination, hell should be something like:

Your plane crashes into a beautiful island where there is no one else, you know that you will have to stay there for years till someone finds you. You have got all the food you need for couple of years and plus, you have got a laptop with with an atomic battery (it will last long for couple of years), you have got a satellite-based Internet connection (don't ask me how!). You turn on your laptop, during the boot you see "BSOD" (Blue screen of death) .

Worry about getting done

"If I spent as much time doing the things I worry about getting done as I do worrying about doing them, I wouldn't have anything to worry about."
-- Beryl Pfizer

A new day

Why don`t you kidnap me for all time sake?
And I`ll come breaking to your house again.
I know you love it when I show you that I really care.
I never felt so safe when I`m lying up your favourite chair

Of a new day
A new day

Why don`t I break all of the rules we made?
Why don`t you throw me in the pool just like that day?
We used to stay up so very, very late,
We used to play our favourite songs until the first sign

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ark5Sw5CTho

Mixture of feelings...

It's a strange stage when your feelings are constantly affected by your daily life. let's put it this way: Stating a day assuming that it will be a great day and you know that you have taken care of everything that is related to you and therefore it will be a fine day. Nevertheless, as time goes by, you realize that the day is not going as you have planned. why? because, others have their own impact on your day. They may change its direction, lighten up or even make it a not-so-perfect day. Well you may say we should not let others to do so and I really want to accept it but, the problem underlying this topic is that you don't want to ignore other's feeling. Long time ago when i was involved in some NLP courses, we learned how to pass everyday's facts through pre-defined filters so you may totally change the meaning of a fact and make it more pleasant. The question that I have been struggling with is that how one can define the Quality of communication in a conversation. Is there any Best, worst, average case ? if there is , what are the figures? Your conversations with your close friends and your life's key people should not become a hassle. I hope that i can find a reliable solution for this issue as it's becoming very annoying lately. So annoying...

Life and its complexities....

Well, there are so many things that can go wrong and trust me if they can (even with 0.1% possibility), they will go wrong. Not being able to realize what has been happening for past few days, I have a very creepy feeling. I just don’t understand my thoughts and moreover I can not even make any sense of them. Just like an accident that puts the victim in a shocking position, I have been wounded by the high volume of different things and different feeling that I have been experiencing. I’m left with the hope to see and experience what I was considering as “Happiness”. The mind, itself and its logical analysis remain quite amazed with what heart and feeling can do to human’s body and soul. The soul, despite its meta-physical nature, can still cause a sensible/touchable kind of pain. So far, I can almost assure myself that there are a lot of hidden , but direct, connections between heart and soul and soul and mind. One should put the order as follow: You see things or hear things that you should not (because you know that they will affect you in a very bad way) , your heart will receive an “Unhappy” signal from your senses. It will pass the complain to your mind and mind will start complaining about some other semi-related issues. And when they see that no one cares, they both, at the same time and in an endless effort try to bother the soul. Soul , with a lot of capacity, starts receiving all the negative signals and soon will become overwhelmed. When soul reaches its limits and passes the pre-defined thresholds, (based on your previous experiences and also mindset and moreover the average of the market!) , it will start sending a lot of “Unhappy” signals to your heart and mind. Well, as you can probably predict, the story gets back to its beginning and starts all over again. We can call it an “infinite loop.” Cone and help me here. It’s your part to sit and imagine the rest of the story and if you get chance, drop me a line if you know of any solution that will send you out of this infinite loop.

Busy like hell........

I have been very busy for past few months that I even forgot that I might need to rest a little bit..

One Step Too Far

You can sleep forever
But still you will be tired
You can stay as cold as stone
But still you won't find peace
With you I feel I'm the meek leading the blind
With you I feel I'm just spending wasting time

I've been waiting
I'm still waiting
I've been waiting
I've been waiting
I've been waiting
I'm still waiting
I'm with you (with you)
It's always one step too far
One step too far

You can walk too far
But still you won't be found
You can look down on the world
But still you won't find love
You won't find love

Only with mellow
Are you thin enough to slide through.
If the sun or the moon should give way to doubt,
They would immediately go out.
One swallow don't make a summer,
But tomorrow has to start somewhere.
Only with mellow
Are you thin enough to slide through.
Only with mellow
Are you thin enough to slide through.
Don't Let nothing ride you
Only with mellow
Are you thin enough to slide through.
Don't Let nothing ride you
One swallow don't make a summer.

I've been waiting
I'm still waiting
I've been waiting
I've been waiting
I've been waiting
I'm still waiting
I'm with you (with you)
It's always one step too far
One step too far


By Dido

so many beautiful things...

Got up early, found something's missing
my only name.
No one else sees but I got stuck,
and soon forever came.
Stopped pushing on for just a second,
then nothing's changed.
Who am I this time, where's my name
I guess it crept away.

No one's calling for me at the door.
And unpredictable won't bother anymore.
And silently gets harder to ignore.
Look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
What's done is done, this life has got it's hold on me.
Just let it go, what now can never be.

I forgot that I might see,
So many beautiful things.
I forgot that I might need,
to find out what life could bring.

Take this happy ending away, it's all the same.
God won't waste this simplicity on possibility.
Get me up, wake me up, dreams are filling
this trace of blame.
Frozen still I thought I could stop,
now who's gonna wait.

No one's calling for me at the door.
and unpredictable won't bother anymore.
and silently gets harder to ignore.
look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
what's done is done, this life has got it's hold on me.
just let it go, what now can never be.

so many beautiful things...
so many beautiful things...

Now what do I do
can I change my mind
did I think things through

It was once my life
it was my life at one time

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Tiesto feat Andain - Beautiful Things

Miles And Miles

How time can fade away
there seems too much to say
we stumble through the day miles and miles
my heart cannot divide this feeling deep inside
how far from fear I lied miles and miles
still standing by this wall no sign of tears to fall
as long as you will call miles and miles
I search where love can grow and watch where bitter flow
am not afraid I know miles and miles ...




Schiller feat. Moya Brennan

Ticking Clocks

Lights go out and I can’t be saved
Tides that I tried to swim against
Brought me down upon my knees
Oh I beg, I beg and plead

Singin’, come out if things aren’t said
Shoot an apple off my head
And a, trouble that can’t be named
Tigers waitin’ to be tamed

Confusion never stops
Closing walls and ticking clocks
Gonna, come back and take you home
I could not stop that you now know

Singin’, come out upon my seas
Curse missed opportunities
Am I, a part of the cure
Or am I part of the disease
Oh nothing else compares
Oh nothing else compares
And nothing else compares

Home, home, where I wanted to go...


Coldplay - Clocks

Such a long night is tonight....

I'm walking alone in this dark nigh and I can think of so many things..
I can think of all the things that I wanted to have...
I can think of all the happy times that I was hoping to have...
I can think of those nights that brought me into this condition...
It was last year, when in few nights, I changed a huge path ....
I changed the path of my life...

For a better, happier, nicer, kinder life and tonight, here I'm...

If no one knows, i know that it takes a huge risk to love without knowing the end...
But a lover , takes this risk, A lover does a lot for his/her love

I do it for your love... Your love goes beyond all the logical theories which we have made. This love passes all the bridges...

It takes a pure love to play the game of love. A game , in which you may be the winner only if you play it.

It's raining and I know something important. It has been always raining during most important moments of my life...

One should never forget that : It's in your moments of decision that your destiny is shaped.

Let Me Love You -

I don't want you to give what you don't have
Don't make a vow that you can't keep
I don't want you to change your positions
Don't hang around just to please me
But I have one request
and if you don't think it`s senseless
let me give you something else


Let me love you
Let me love you
Free of all rituals, nothing habitual
Something you can save your teeth into
Let me love you..
Let me love you
Free of where have you been
Freedom what's take command
Something you can fall right back into
My love for you
my love for you..


We can go deep if you need to
I won't draw a line that fronts against you
Don't hold back if you are afraid to
A sensual sin is what awaits you
But i have one request
and if you don't think it`s senseless
let me give you something else


Let me love you
Let me love you
Free of all rituals, nothing habitual
Something you can save your teeth into
Let me love you
Let me love you
Free of where have you been
Freedom let's take command
Something you can fall right back into
My love for you
my love for you..

Song/lyric : Schiller

This time, FOR GOOD,,

This time, FOR GOOD,,
For YOUR GOOD, MY GOOD, and OUR OWN GOOD... I realized...
I trust in me,, I know you would too..
I trust u, I trust myself...
So let's fly and make the sky of this icy city , a sunny one forever and ever...

I love u..
Believe in US .. We make the best out of every moment, every movenent and we enjoy it until eternity...

Believe in me

When you chose to sail away
Now take a seat and stay forever
And make me stop counting the dates

Lately I heard you're doing well
Though I don't know how that feels

Believe in me - after all
Believe in me - and hear me call
There's a world behind these walls that I just need to see
Believe in me

Every dream that had been shattered
Disappears without a trace
Now that I've found what really matters, yeah
After you had gone away

Even though you had been doing well
Don't you hide behind a smile

And just believe in me
Believe in me
Believe in me
Believe in me

Believe in me - after all
Believe in me - and hear me call
There's a world behind these walls that I just need to see
Believe in me

ATB....

Above and Beyond.....

Slipping sideways, silver stars collide
And fade away just like our love that died
And there is nowhere in this universe to hide
From you tonight

I’ve wrestled with angels all my life
It’s always the haloes and the wings that keep you blind
And if I’d fought with all the strength I held inside
I wouldn’t be out here
Alone tonight

I wouldn’t be standing alone tonight
I wouldn’t be standing alone tonight

Alone tonight, just like the western star I’m sinking
The angels curse me blind with straight and crooked thinking
Alone tonight, just like the western star I’m sinking
The angels curse me blind with straight and crooked thinking

1st April - New Day - New Age - New Habbit -

It was at my birthday that I realized something has been changed.

Something inside. I remember that I used to be a succesfull Manager (backhome) and I used to deal with 800 students and 40 personnels. Well, that was 5 years ago. Now, things are changed. I travelled from a developing country and I started a new life in North America--which from many aspects is much more developed that where I used to work....

When I started to adopt myself with this new culture and enviornment, I knew that it's a time-consuming process. It's an evolution and needs time.

Now, I feel that I can start. Well, i haven't started yet. I'm now planning for an start and that should happen soon.

Today i have started to count the minutes before I start. When I start, I see that goal will be achieved....It was easy last time, for sure, it will easier this time. I have all my expriences with me. Now it's time for a little bit more fun....

Start Point: Data to be transferred :

Stored in the DB : 5192 GB
Data on the session: 5000 GB
Ongoing Traffic : Amprox ~ 2000 GB/M

I will keep updating this data transfer log

Modern office technologies: hassle or relief?

Have computers given us more time to spend on our hobbies or have they stolen our peace of mind and increased our discomforts and difficulties in the workplace? Computers and information systems, Internet, public networks, and modern communications are key elements of a widespread and evolving phenomenon that can be called “Digital Evolution”. This dominating phenomenon is permeating to every aspect of our lives and will continue to change society and by extension the workplace. From the beginning of this evolution, we were told that Information and Communication Technology (ICT) was invented to simplify our work-life and decrease the complexity of our daily tasks.

Although ITCs have increased the speed of processes and automated many challenging and complex procedures, at the same time they have caused a variety of problems that never existed before. In some places such as IT companies, where IT technologies are playing a critical role, human and computer interaction can be very stressful. In this human-to-computer interaction, it is the computer that will not rest, will not feel, and will not succumb to stress. The anxiety and tension caused by ITC is not what we were promised and advertised by the media. Ads in newspapers and magazines, commercials on TV, and giant posters on billboards all brag about how perfect technology is and often conceal the disadvantages that ITC and ITC alone can bring along.
In contrast to public media, scientific researchers are more conscious about advantages and disadvantages of innovative and modern technologies. If the major goal of ICT is to assist people with their difficulties and consequently decrease their stress level, this goal has not yet been accomplished. In fact, ICT is causing far more anxiety and tension than helping us pave our way to an easy and stress-free life.
According to the 2000 General Social Survey (GSS) of Statistics Canada, nearly 60% of Canadian workers have used computer in their workplace. Moreover, a comparison between GSS 2000 and GSS 1993 shows a 100% growth in the usage of computers and modern technologies at the workplace. In spite of the fact that ITC requires operational skills, its fast growth has caused a tremendous demand for people and organizations to increase their computer and IT skills. In most places, people are expected to know how to operate computers, printers, advanced phones and digital devices. Emails, internet-based communications, and online meetings and presentations are now part of our daily tasks. In an atmosphere that companies and organizations are tightly competing for technological advantages by adopting new ICTs, workers frequently find themselves being surrounded by new technologies and devices that require technical knowledge and skills. In such a demanding environment, “Survival of the fittest” can be read as “Survival of the most-skilled”. In view of the fact that acquiring computer and IT skills is a challenge, it has become a nightmare for a vast number of workers. In fact, a significant amount of workplace stress is associated with the need to learn new ITC skills.

In addition to all the anxiety generated by ITCs, technical failures are not any of help to our hectic lives.Companies and organizations are relying on new technologies so much so that computers and digital systems are taking the control of information flow and business directions. In such environment, computers are the corner stone of communication and procedures. This means that if a technical problem occurs, a huge part of an automated process will fail and this failure causes many consequences such as loss of data, delay or failure in projects, passing deadlines, etc. Each one of the mentioned issues can be held responsible for an immense amount of stress in the work place.

As an IT manager for an IT-based company, I have seen a huge difference between practical and theoretical point of views in IT industry. In theory, we always consider the bright part in which computers and digital devices behave logically and productively. Well, that is not the case when it comes to reality. Implementation of modern technologies can be more complex than what we often see in our estimates and designs, and therefore their consequences can go beyond our predictions. Computers and information technologies are changing our today’s life style and shaping our future. If we were to compare our lives with those of our parents, we would realize that we are experiencing a much harder life and a busier age than they did so without relying on all these sophisticated technologies.

how many mistakes?

how many mistakes? how many times? how many times should i feel like shit because of other's performance? how many fucking times should i hate my self because of other's perfromance? I hate work group. It's nothing but a shame for those they understand better than the others in a team.

Nice Quote

Robert Herrick in "Noble Numbers" says:


Maybe this world is another planet's hell.

MAD?

No great genius has ever existed without some touch of madness.
Aristotle

I don't mind failure

"nil moror defeciendum; sciam me conatus esse"
(I don't mind failure ; I will know myself to have tried - Oneiros)

Little Prince

When I first read the Little Prince, I was 14 and since then, I read it every year. It's amazing how the meaning of this book has been changed everytime that I have read it. Everytime, I have found new examples matching with what the story is talking about and it seems that the whole society is making more mistakes as time goes by. Each year , I find more struggles, more issues, more complexities and less global happiness. Where are we going? I don't know if anyone knows but i bet even leaders have no idea either. one question that the answer matters a lot is:





How many sunshine have you seen in the past few weeks?


oh noooooooo, you can't blame the cloudy sky.........

I trust in what you said....

That hurts.....

When we are always together..
when we know how much we love eachother...
when we see that everything in our life is better when we are together....
when you see that I really love you...
when I know that you really love me...

why do you turn your face.
I wish you ...............
I wish you ...............

That hurts when you............
That makes me sad when you.....

Cold is the night, Cold are my hands, cold is my heart....
I keep the pain and no one would know... no one knows, not even you.....


You came to see me, but , but , you decided not to talk to me... that hurts...
I keep the pain and no one would know... no one knows, not even ............

Nice days

These days are nice days. I have what I want and I can gain what i need.
These days are nice days. I'm calm and no one bothers me.
These days are nice days. My life is the product of my own development and almost no external power is managing it.
These days are nice days. I live in a lovely city which makes our life easier.
These days are nice days. Because You are with me and I do everything possible to keep you forever.
These days are nice days. Because you are mine and mine and mine.
These days are nice days and will be nice forever, as long as you are with me.





My dear, my darling, Thanks for bringing all this happiness into my life.
I will be thankful forever.

Sa(lman+xx)

I need you.....

I need you….

In the whole world, I have no one to get back to if you are not with me……

In all my nights, I have no moon in the sky if you are not with me….

In all my life, I have no happiness if you are not with me…

All my dreams will be nightmares if you are not with me….

Oh my heart, it will be broken if you are not with me….

Oh my hands, they will be craving for your sense if you are not with me….

MY body, my soul, they hate me if you are not with me….

I need you…

EVERYTHING that I have will be gone if you are not with me….

This is my declaration

This is my declaration for the true love that I have found. Your respect for my love and personal life is highly appreciated and I believe those they really like me, like to see me happy and successful. Again I thank you all for understanding this fact.

Truly Yours,
Salman

Another day in heaven

You woke me up.
You called my name.
You touched my hands..
You kissed my lips...
You were in my arms..
You put your head on my shoulder.....
You held me tight...

We shared the best we could....
And I was in heaven...

Tell me that you know

Antoine De Saint-Exupery is the author of the best book that I have ever read
“Little princes”. He says

“True love begins when nothing is looked for in return."

This is to my real, true, endless love:


Tell me that you know that I’m your lover…
Tell me that you know that I have been in love with you…
Tell me that you know that I’m your Romeo….
Tell me that I’m your faithful lover…
Tell me that you know If you ever ask me, nothing is beyond me….
Tell me that you know that you will be mine…
Tell me that you will be with me till end of life, till end of this world.

Please Come to me and let me see your eyes.
Please Come to me, My eyes are in love with your face…

I want to look at your face for years and years….

Without you, I was looking at the sky and there was no sun , there was no moon, there was no happiness and I was alone….

Tell me that you have accepted my love…
Tell me that you have accepted my heart…
Tell me that you have accepted my soul…
Tel me that you have accepted my hands….

Without you, there would be no way to tomorrow.
Without you, there would be no sun, no moon, no night, no day….


Tell me that you love me…
Tell me that I’m yours…
Tell me that you have accepted my life….

This is the life I want to live forever…..

Your hands are close to me…..
I can smell your smile…..
I can look at your eyes forever…
I can hear your voice, your heavenly voice…..
I can kiss your lips….
I can touch your body…
I can feel your soul…
I can kiss your smile…
I can hear your heartbeat…
I can hear you breathing….
I can be with you longer than time
I can be yours longer than time
We can be together for more than centuries….
We have been together for more than one life…..

And now, again if you are here forever……….
I will be leaving in heaven forever…

I woke you up....

I was looking at you when you were leaving and I knew that I will miss you.
Eventhough I spent all my evening with you, I knew I will miss you in few minutes.
You were on your way back home when I missed you.

I was with my family but I was alone. My shoulders were asking for you.
My heart was beating for you. My sould was craving for you.

The very first moment that I found, I called you and woke you up. Your voice brought me happiness. Oh honey, I wish you were here, I would hold you tight forever. I wish you were here, you are my love, you are my love...

I need you more than anything in my life

Honey,

This is for you.

I want to tell you that I love you more than anything in this world.
I want to tell you that I need you more than anything in this world.
Without you, there would be no me, there would be no happiness, there would be no life, there would be no light.
Without you, my world will be dark forever. Thanks for coming to my life...


I'm in love....

You are the only one…..

I was waiting for some one special, some one extra ordinary, some on exceptional

I knew that one day, you would come through my door and I knew that this would happen to me…

I knew that I would fall in love and you knew that you would fall in love….

I knew that I have waited for so long but I didn’t know that you would be waiting for so long too…

I knew that my heart is really kind , but I never knew that there is a kinder heart too,

I knew that your heart is kind, but I didn’t know that your heart is the kindest one…

I knew that we can change everything, but I never knew we can do it without changing our self….

I knew that I will be yours but I was only hoping if you could be mine….

Now, I know that your are mine and you are the only one….

2:00 AM here in Toronto

it's 2:00 AM here in Toronto. You are not here but you are in my heart.
I’m looking at the sky and its clouds. I can see the moon light …..
It’s the same moon that I was watching few hours ago when I was sitting close to you. Still it’s there. I know that somewhere in this city, you are thinking about me. I look at the moon, I hope you can see the moon too. It’s waiting for us to reach it. If I were with you, we could go to sunset beach and then we could look at the moon. You know that over there, I will have two moons to look at.
I choose the one that is closer to me.

When you are with me, I don’t need anything else.
I will be with you for the rest of my life.
I will follow you wherever you lead me.
I will be your heart’s guest for the rest of my life.
I will be lost in your eyes.
I choose to be with……


Your heart, your eyes, your soul and your body…
One day, soon, they will be mine…..

All I neeeded, All i need, all i will need
is you....

Salman ... 2:00 AM

These Days....

It’s hard to believe that sometimes, some people come to your heart faster than you can track them. They come faster than you can love them or even faster than you can like them. It was a quiet afternoon when I realized that my heart is taken. It was so fast that it didn’t let me to be prepared for it. It was fast because it was not happening through regular senses. I didn’t fall for an ordinary feeling. It was an extra-ordinary feeling that took control of my heart. Shall I name it Love? If this is love, what were all other feelings that I had before and named them love?

I’m confused because I searched my experiences, other’s experiences with this hope to find out what this feeling is…

The more I searched; more I found out that this is not a regular and known feeling.

I will write more about if I find more about it but don’t expect that much …

Let the morning sun proclaim

People like me think that everything in this world can be addressed by the power of the mind.
People like me want to analyze each movements they make. People like me never like the change. They don't want the risk. They don't want to lose anything, but you know what , I lost what I was worry to lose. Why? simply because I was so selfish. Because I wanted to observe my feelings. Because I was looking for an applicable formula for happiness. Happiness is the first thing that you lose in your way to find it.

Happiness can not be found in complexity. There is a simpler way to be happy.

I have started to think less and do more. I want to enjoy my life and this is my desire.
I'm not burned with my desires. I like to do them and that's why I trust them.

I trust what i like and i like what I trust.


Signed by:
A semi-happy-in-changing-procedure Salman!!!

Sunset Beach....

It was spring in the Air and I was happy. I was really happy, my dear friend was standing close to me and we were at sunset beach. There was no sunset, but there were nice stars and I could see the moon.

I wanted to rank the moon in your eyes...
I wanted to look at you for years and years....
I wanted to take you away from whatever that was bothering you.
I wanted to give you happiness.
I wanted to share my happiness with me since i was really happy. I didn't want to loose a minute or even a seconds. We walked, we talked , we laughed , we ............

Her voice.....

I was alone, I was looking at the sky and I was whispering loneliness when she called my name.
Blue skies, these white clouds, Toronto and its nice weather in May, her voice and all she says, her friendly attitudes, they are nice, they are my little reasons to be happy. They may look small, but they make big differences. Good friend is rare to find and hard to keep. It requires appreciation and understanding. As a nice quote says:

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same.

I had a dream last night.

I had a dream last night.

In my dream, you were mine and I was yours.

You were mine longer than time...

I was looking at your eyes....

I was kissing your smile....

I was smelling your skin...

I was holding your hands....

I was whispering your name...

It was spring in the air and we're together...

We were running, We were the sunshine...

We were the soul of the world ... the world of happiness....

I was holding your hands, i was looking at your eyes..

It was a new world, a brand new world , the world that i was looking through your eyes.

It was a better world, it was a kinder world....

Skies were smiling at us.

Your smile, it's the last thing that i remember, your eyes were closed and when I reached my hand to touch your face, you opened your eyes, you opened your eyes and ....

I woke up, The Sun was shining in my eyes ......... Sunrise..... Your Eyes.

Salman