A cozy place for myself...For the days that I want to share my feelings and my thoughts and for the days that I need to know how I felt and thought in the past.

Wednesday, December 09, 2009

Sirens of the sea




Follow me, follow me yeah let's go
To the sand, to the sand, the purest sand
Into the sea, into the sea yeah let's go

Out beyond the water's edge
Far out past the coral bench
Underneath the diamond dancing lights
Chase the world from far below
Silence sleeping in the glow
Drifting down into the endless night

Take my hand, take my hand yeah take my hand
Follow me, follow me yeah let's go
To the sand, to the sand, the purest sand
Into the sea, into the sea yeah let's go

Leaving reason far behind
Nothing here is cruel or kind
Only your desire to set me free
Let us lie here all alone
Worn away like river stone
Let us be the sirens of the sea

OCEAN LAB-

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

I Miss YOU

I miss you...
where are you now?
I miss you...
where have you gone?
waiting the whole life for you...
i miss you and i need you...

it was raining when i left and it's still raining
I kiss you...

looking at the trees.. \i see how my love for you has grown and how it has thousands of versions ... nevertheless, the root is still the same simple fact that I love you.

I miss you in thousands ways..in thousands miles...

UK/Shieffield

Thursday, November 05, 2009

Manifest your life...

Sa(lman+ra) will work on a new task which will be manifesting our life.

I bet we will learn so many new things about eachother.

Monday, November 02, 2009

Data Transfer Log...

Start Point: Data to be transferred :(Tuesday, April 01, 2008)



Stored in the DB : 5192 GB
Data on the session: 5000 GB
Ongoing Traffic : Approx ~ 2000 GB/M




(Monday, Nov 02, 2009)



Stored in the DB : 25500 GB
Data on the session: 2000 GB
Ongoing Traffic : Approx ~ 3000 GB/M

Just a reminder for myself about the TV series...

1) HIMYM --> End of Season 5


















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2) The office --> Up to end of season 4




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3) 24 --> Up to end of Season 5

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4) Friends --> Completed.




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5) The big Bang Theory --> up to end of season 3.



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6) Gossip Girl --> End of Season 3





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7) Two and a Half Men --> End of Episode 15 of Season 7


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8) Entourage --> End of Season 6


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9) 30 Rock --> End of Season 1




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10) It's always sunny in Philadephia --> End of Season 1

Monday, October 26, 2009

Business administration

It takes so much effort and work to make a successful business. Not knowing that, can make you work 24 * 7 and not even achieving half of your goals . You should stand up for your goals and it's hard but fruitful. Made a decision long time ago but never had a chance to dedicate my energy for it. It's excellent implementation of Information Technology. It's IT with the highest possible EXCELLENCE.

Fingers crossed ....

Thursday, September 03, 2009

A place like hell........

In my imagination, hell should be something like:

Your plane crashes into a beautiful island where there is no one else, you know that you will have to stay there for years till someone finds you. You have got all the food you need for couple of years and plus, you have got a laptop with with an atomic battery (it will last long for couple of years), you have got a satellite-based Internet connection (don't ask me how!). You turn on your laptop, during the boot you see "BSOD" (Blue screen of death) .

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

Worry about getting done

"If I spent as much time doing the things I worry about getting done as I do worrying about doing them, I wouldn't have anything to worry about."
-- Beryl Pfizer

Sunday, July 19, 2009

A new day

Why don`t you kidnap me for all time sake?
And I`ll come breaking to your house again.
I know you love it when I show you that I really care.
I never felt so safe when I`m lying up your favourite chair

Of a new day
A new day

Why don`t I break all of the rules we made?
Why don`t you throw me in the pool just like that day?
We used to stay up so very, very late,
We used to play our favourite songs until the first sign

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ark5Sw5CTho

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Mixture of feelings...

It's a strange stage when your feelings are constantly affected by your daily life. let's put it this way: Stating a day assuming that it will be a great day and you know that you have taken care of everything that is related to you and therefore it will be a fine day. Nevertheless, as time goes by, you realize that the day is not going as you have planned. why? because, others have their own impact on your day. They may change its direction, lighten up or even make it a not-so-perfect day. Well you may say we should not let others to do so and I really want to accept it but, the problem underlying this topic is that you don't want to ignore other's feeling. Long time ago when i was involved in some NLP courses, we learned how to pass everyday's facts through pre-defined filters so you may totally change the meaning of a fact and make it more pleasant. The question that I have been struggling with is that how one can define the Quality of communication in a conversation. Is there any Best, worst, average case ? if there is , what are the figures? Your conversations with your close friends and your life's key people should not become a hassle. I hope that i can find a reliable solution for this issue as it's becoming very annoying lately. So annoying...

Thursday, February 05, 2009

Life and its complexities....


Well, there are so many things that can go wrong and trust me if they can (even with 0.1% possibility), they will go wrong. Not being able to realize what has been happening for past few days, I have a very creepy feeling. I just don’t understand my thoughts and moreover I can not even make any sense of them. Just like an accident that puts the victim in a shocking position, I have been wounded by the high volume of different things and different feeling that I have been experiencing. I’m left with the hope to see and experience what I was considering as “Happiness”. The mind, itself and its logical analysis remain quite amazed with what heart and feeling can do to human’s body and soul. The soul, despite its meta-physical nature, can still cause a sensible/touchable kind of pain. So far, I can almost assure myself that there are a lot of hidden , but direct, connections between heart and soul and soul and mind. One should put the order as follow: You see things or hear things that you should not (because you know that they will affect you in a very bad way) , your heart will receive an “Unhappy” signal from your senses. It will pass the complain to your mind and mind will start complaining about some other semi-related issues. And when they see that no one cares, they both, at the same time and in an endless effort try to bother the soul. Soul , with a lot of capacity, starts receiving all the negative signals and soon will become overwhelmed. When soul reaches its limits and passes the pre-defined thresholds, (based on your previous experiences and also mindset and moreover the average of the market!) , it will start sending a lot of “Unhappy” signals to your heart and mind. Well, as you can probably predict, the story gets back to its beginning and starts all over again. We can call it an “infinite loop.” Cone and help me here. It’s your part to sit and imagine the rest of the story and if you get chance, drop me a line if you know of any solution that will send you out of this infinite loop.

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

Busy like hell........

I have been very busy for past few months that I even forgot that I might need to rest a little bit..

Thursday, October 30, 2008

One Step Too Far

You can sleep forever
But still you will be tired
You can stay as cold as stone
But still you won't find peace
With you I feel I'm the meek leading the blind
With you I feel I'm just spending wasting time

I've been waiting
I'm still waiting
I've been waiting
I've been waiting
I've been waiting
I'm still waiting
I'm with you (with you)
It's always one step too far
One step too far

You can walk too far
But still you won't be found
You can look down on the world
But still you won't find love
You won't find love

Only with mellow
Are you thin enough to slide through.
If the sun or the moon should give way to doubt,
They would immediately go out.
One swallow don't make a summer,
But tomorrow has to start somewhere.
Only with mellow
Are you thin enough to slide through.
Only with mellow
Are you thin enough to slide through.
Don't Let nothing ride you
Only with mellow
Are you thin enough to slide through.
Don't Let nothing ride you
One swallow don't make a summer.

I've been waiting
I'm still waiting
I've been waiting
I've been waiting
I've been waiting
I'm still waiting
I'm with you (with you)
It's always one step too far
One step too far


By Dido

Saturday, October 18, 2008

so many beautiful things...

Got up early, found something's missing
my only name.
No one else sees but I got stuck,
and soon forever came.
Stopped pushing on for just a second,
then nothing's changed.
Who am I this time, where's my name
I guess it crept away.

No one's calling for me at the door.
And unpredictable won't bother anymore.
And silently gets harder to ignore.
Look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
What's done is done, this life has got it's hold on me.
Just let it go, what now can never be.

I forgot that I might see,
So many beautiful things.
I forgot that I might need,
to find out what life could bring.

Take this happy ending away, it's all the same.
God won't waste this simplicity on possibility.
Get me up, wake me up, dreams are filling
this trace of blame.
Frozen still I thought I could stop,
now who's gonna wait.

No one's calling for me at the door.
and unpredictable won't bother anymore.
and silently gets harder to ignore.
look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
what's done is done, this life has got it's hold on me.
just let it go, what now can never be.

so many beautiful things...
so many beautiful things...

Now what do I do
can I change my mind
did I think things through

It was once my life
it was my life at one time

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Tiesto feat Andain - Beautiful Things

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Miles And Miles


How time can fade away
there seems too much to say
we stumble through the day miles and miles
my heart cannot divide this feeling deep inside
how far from fear I lied miles and miles
still standing by this wall no sign of tears to fall
as long as you will call miles and miles
I search where love can grow and watch where bitter flow
am not afraid I know miles and miles ...




Schiller feat. Moya Brennan

Friday, September 12, 2008

Ticking Clocks

Lights go out and I can’t be saved
Tides that I tried to swim against
Brought me down upon my knees
Oh I beg, I beg and plead

Singin’, come out if things aren’t said
Shoot an apple off my head
And a, trouble that can’t be named
Tigers waitin’ to be tamed

Confusion never stops
Closing walls and ticking clocks
Gonna, come back and take you home
I could not stop that you now know

Singin’, come out upon my seas
Curse missed opportunities
Am I, a part of the cure
Or am I part of the disease
Oh nothing else compares
Oh nothing else compares
And nothing else compares

Home, home, where I wanted to go...


Coldplay - Clocks

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Such a long night is tonight....

I'm walking alone in this dark nigh and I can think of so many things..
I can think of all the things that I wanted to have...
I can think of all the happy times that I was hoping to have...
I can think of those nights that brought me into this condition...
It was last year, when in few nights, I changed a huge path ....
I changed the path of my life...

For a better, happier, nicer, kinder life and tonight, here I'm...

If no one knows, i know that it takes a huge risk to love without knowing the end...
But a lover , takes this risk, A lover does a lot for his/her love

I do it for your love... Your love goes beyond all the logical theories which we have made. This love passes all the bridges...

It takes a pure love to play the game of love. A game , in which you may be the winner only if you play it.

It's raining and I know something important. It has been always raining during most important moments of my life...

One should never forget that : It's in your moments of decision that your destiny is shaped.

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

Let Me Love You -

I don't want you to give what you don't have
Don't make a vow that you can't keep
I don't want you to change your positions
Don't hang around just to please me
But I have one request
and if you don't think it`s senseless
let me give you something else


Let me love you
Let me love you
Free of all rituals, nothing habitual
Something you can save your teeth into
Let me love you..
Let me love you
Free of where have you been
Freedom what's take command
Something you can fall right back into
My love for you
my love for you..


We can go deep if you need to
I won't draw a line that fronts against you
Don't hold back if you are afraid to
A sensual sin is what awaits you
But i have one request
and if you don't think it`s senseless
let me give you something else


Let me love you
Let me love you
Free of all rituals, nothing habitual
Something you can save your teeth into
Let me love you
Let me love you
Free of where have you been
Freedom let's take command
Something you can fall right back into
My love for you
my love for you..

Song/lyric : Schiller

Monday, May 12, 2008

This time, FOR GOOD,,

This time, FOR GOOD,,
For YOUR GOOD, MY GOOD, and OUR OWN GOOD... I realized...
I trust in me,, I know you would too..
I trust u, I trust myself...
So let's fly and make the sky of this icy city , a sunny one forever and ever...

I love u..
Believe in US .. We make the best out of every moment, every movenent and we enjoy it until eternity...

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

Believe in me

When you chose to sail away
Now take a seat and stay forever
And make me stop counting the dates

Lately I heard you're doing well
Though I don't know how that feels

Believe in me - after all
Believe in me - and hear me call
There's a world behind these walls that I just need to see
Believe in me

Every dream that had been shattered
Disappears without a trace
Now that I've found what really matters, yeah
After you had gone away

Even though you had been doing well
Don't you hide behind a smile

And just believe in me
Believe in me
Believe in me
Believe in me

Believe in me - after all
Believe in me - and hear me call
There's a world behind these walls that I just need to see
Believe in me

ATB....

Thursday, April 03, 2008

Above and Beyond.....


Slipping sideways, silver stars collide
And fade away just like our love that died
And there is nowhere in this universe to hide
From you tonight

I’ve wrestled with angels all my life
It’s always the haloes and the wings that keep you blind
And if I’d fought with all the strength I held inside
I wouldn’t be out here
Alone tonight

I wouldn’t be standing alone tonight
I wouldn’t be standing alone tonight

Alone tonight, just like the western star I’m sinking
The angels curse me blind with straight and crooked thinking
Alone tonight, just like the western star I’m sinking
The angels curse me blind with straight and crooked thinking

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

1st April - New Day - New Age - New Habbit -

It was at my birthday that I realized something has been changed.

Something inside. I remember that I used to be a succesfull Manager (backhome) and I used to deal with 800 students and 40 personnels. Well, that was 5 years ago. Now, things are changed. I travelled from a developing country and I started a new life in North America--which from many aspects is much more developed that where I used to work....

When I started to adopt myself with this new culture and enviornment, I knew that it's a time-consuming process. It's an evolution and needs time.

Now, I feel that I can start. Well, i haven't started yet. I'm now planning for an start and that should happen soon.

Today i have started to count the minutes before I start. When I start, I see that goal will be achieved....It was easy last time, for sure, it will easier this time. I have all my expriences with me. Now it's time for a little bit more fun....

Start Point: Data to be transferred :

Stored in the DB : 5192 GB
Data on the session: 5000 GB
Ongoing Traffic : Amprox ~ 2000 GB/M

I will keep updating this data transfer log

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Modern office technologies: hassle or relief?

Have computers given us more time to spend on our hobbies or have they stolen our peace of mind and increased our discomforts and difficulties in the workplace? Computers and information systems, Internet, public networks, and modern communications are key elements of a widespread and evolving phenomenon that can be called “Digital Evolution”. This dominating phenomenon is permeating to every aspect of our lives and will continue to change society and by extension the workplace. From the beginning of this evolution, we were told that Information and Communication Technology (ICT) was invented to simplify our work-life and decrease the complexity of our daily tasks.

Although ITCs have increased the speed of processes and automated many challenging and complex procedures, at the same time they have caused a variety of problems that never existed before. In some places such as IT companies, where IT technologies are playing a critical role, human and computer interaction can be very stressful. In this human-to-computer interaction, it is the computer that will not rest, will not feel, and will not succumb to stress. The anxiety and tension caused by ITC is not what we were promised and advertised by the media. Ads in newspapers and magazines, commercials on TV, and giant posters on billboards all brag about how perfect technology is and often conceal the disadvantages that ITC and ITC alone can bring along.
In contrast to public media, scientific researchers are more conscious about advantages and disadvantages of innovative and modern technologies. If the major goal of ICT is to assist people with their difficulties and consequently decrease their stress level, this goal has not yet been accomplished. In fact, ICT is causing far more anxiety and tension than helping us pave our way to an easy and stress-free life.
According to the 2000 General Social Survey (GSS) of Statistics Canada, nearly 60% of Canadian workers have used computer in their workplace. Moreover, a comparison between GSS 2000 and GSS 1993 shows a 100% growth in the usage of computers and modern technologies at the workplace. In spite of the fact that ITC requires operational skills, its fast growth has caused a tremendous demand for people and organizations to increase their computer and IT skills. In most places, people are expected to know how to operate computers, printers, advanced phones and digital devices. Emails, internet-based communications, and online meetings and presentations are now part of our daily tasks. In an atmosphere that companies and organizations are tightly competing for technological advantages by adopting new ICTs, workers frequently find themselves being surrounded by new technologies and devices that require technical knowledge and skills. In such a demanding environment, “Survival of the fittest” can be read as “Survival of the most-skilled”. In view of the fact that acquiring computer and IT skills is a challenge, it has become a nightmare for a vast number of workers. In fact, a significant amount of workplace stress is associated with the need to learn new ITC skills.

In addition to all the anxiety generated by ITCs, technical failures are not any of help to our hectic lives.Companies and organizations are relying on new technologies so much so that computers and digital systems are taking the control of information flow and business directions. In such environment, computers are the corner stone of communication and procedures. This means that if a technical problem occurs, a huge part of an automated process will fail and this failure causes many consequences such as loss of data, delay or failure in projects, passing deadlines, etc. Each one of the mentioned issues can be held responsible for an immense amount of stress in the work place.

As an IT manager for an IT-based company, I have seen a huge difference between practical and theoretical point of views in IT industry. In theory, we always consider the bright part in which computers and digital devices behave logically and productively. Well, that is not the case when it comes to reality. Implementation of modern technologies can be more complex than what we often see in our estimates and designs, and therefore their consequences can go beyond our predictions. Computers and information technologies are changing our today’s life style and shaping our future. If we were to compare our lives with those of our parents, we would realize that we are experiencing a much harder life and a busier age than they did so without relying on all these sophisticated technologies.

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

how many mistakes?

how many mistakes? how many times? how many times should i feel like shit because of other's performance? how many fucking times should i hate my self because of other's perfromance? I hate work group. It's nothing but a shame for those they understand better than the others in a team.

Friday, January 25, 2008

Nice Quote

Robert Herrick in "Noble Numbers" says:


Maybe this world is another planet's hell.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

MAD?

No great genius has ever existed without some touch of madness.
Aristotle

Friday, January 11, 2008

I don't mind failure

"nil moror defeciendum; sciam me conatus esse"
(I don't mind failure ; I will know myself to have tried - Oneiros)

Friday, November 30, 2007

Little Prince

When I first read the Little Prince, I was 14 and since then, I read it every year. It's amazing how the meaning of this book has been changed everytime that I have read it. Everytime, I have found new examples matching with what the story is talking about and it seems that the whole society is making more mistakes as time goes by. Each year , I find more struggles, more issues, more complexities and less global happiness. Where are we going? I don't know if anyone knows but i bet even leaders have no idea either. one question that the answer matters a lot is:





How many sunshine have you seen in the past few weeks?


oh noooooooo, you can't blame the cloudy sky.........

Monday, November 26, 2007

Monday, October 22, 2007

That hurts.....

When we are always together..
when we know how much we love eachother...
when we see that everything in our life is better when we are together....
when you see that I really love you...
when I know that you really love me...

why do you turn your face.
I wish you ...............
I wish you ...............

That hurts when you............
That makes me sad when you.....

Cold is the night, Cold are my hands, cold is my heart....
I keep the pain and no one would know... no one knows, not even you.....


You came to see me, but , but , you decided not to talk to me... that hurts...
I keep the pain and no one would know... no one knows, not even ............

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Nice days

These days are nice days. I have what I want and I can gain what i need.
These days are nice days. I'm calm and no one bothers me.
These days are nice days. My life is the product of my own development and almost no external power is managing it.
These days are nice days. I live in a lovely city which makes our life easier.
These days are nice days. Because You are with me and I do everything possible to keep you forever.
These days are nice days. Because you are mine and mine and mine.
These days are nice days and will be nice forever, as long as you are with me.





My dear, my darling, Thanks for bringing all this happiness into my life.
I will be thankful forever.

Sa(lman+xx)

Friday, August 03, 2007

I need you.....

I need you….

In the whole world, I have no one to get back to if you are not with me……

In all my nights, I have no moon in the sky if you are not with me….

In all my life, I have no happiness if you are not with me…

All my dreams will be nightmares if you are not with me….

Oh my heart, it will be broken if you are not with me….

Oh my hands, they will be craving for your sense if you are not with me….

MY body, my soul, they hate me if you are not with me….

I need you…

EVERYTHING that I have will be gone if you are not with me….

Sunday, July 22, 2007

This is my declaration

This is my declaration for the true love that I have found. Your respect for my love and personal life is highly appreciated and I believe those they really like me, like to see me happy and successful. Again I thank you all for understanding this fact.

Truly Yours,
Salman

Sunday, July 08, 2007

Another day in heaven

You woke me up.
You called my name.
You touched my hands..
You kissed my lips...
You were in my arms..
You put your head on my shoulder.....
You held me tight...

We shared the best we could....
And I was in heaven...

Friday, July 06, 2007

Tell me that you know

Antoine De Saint-Exupery is the author of the best book that I have ever read
“Little princes”. He says

“True love begins when nothing is looked for in return."

This is to my real, true, endless love:


Tell me that you know that I’m your lover…
Tell me that you know that I have been in love with you…
Tell me that you know that I’m your Romeo….
Tell me that I’m your faithful lover…
Tell me that you know If you ever ask me, nothing is beyond me….
Tell me that you know that you will be mine…
Tell me that you will be with me till end of life, till end of this world.

Please Come to me and let me see your eyes.
Please Come to me, My eyes are in love with your face…

I want to look at your face for years and years….

Without you, I was looking at the sky and there was no sun , there was no moon, there was no happiness and I was alone….

Tell me that you have accepted my love…
Tell me that you have accepted my heart…
Tell me that you have accepted my soul…
Tel me that you have accepted my hands….

Without you, there would be no way to tomorrow.
Without you, there would be no sun, no moon, no night, no day….


Tell me that you love me…
Tell me that I’m yours…
Tell me that you have accepted my life….

Monday, July 02, 2007

This is the life I want to live forever…..

Your hands are close to me…..
I can smell your smile…..
I can look at your eyes forever…
I can hear your voice, your heavenly voice…..
I can kiss your lips….
I can touch your body…
I can feel your soul…
I can kiss your smile…
I can hear your heartbeat…
I can hear you breathing….
I can be with you longer than time
I can be yours longer than time
We can be together for more than centuries….
We have been together for more than one life…..

And now, again if you are here forever……….
I will be leaving in heaven forever…

Saturday, June 30, 2007

I woke you up....

I was looking at you when you were leaving and I knew that I will miss you.
Eventhough I spent all my evening with you, I knew I will miss you in few minutes.
You were on your way back home when I missed you.

I was with my family but I was alone. My shoulders were asking for you.
My heart was beating for you. My sould was craving for you.

The very first moment that I found, I called you and woke you up. Your voice brought me happiness. Oh honey, I wish you were here, I would hold you tight forever. I wish you were here, you are my love, you are my love...

Thursday, June 28, 2007

I need you more than anything in my life

Honey,

This is for you.

I want to tell you that I love you more than anything in this world.
I want to tell you that I need you more than anything in this world.
Without you, there would be no me, there would be no happiness, there would be no life, there would be no light.
Without you, my world will be dark forever. Thanks for coming to my life...


I'm in love....

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

You are the only one…..

I was waiting for some one special, some one extra ordinary, some on exceptional

I knew that one day, you would come through my door and I knew that this would happen to me…

I knew that I would fall in love and you knew that you would fall in love….

I knew that I have waited for so long but I didn’t know that you would be waiting for so long too…

I knew that my heart is really kind , but I never knew that there is a kinder heart too,

I knew that your heart is kind, but I didn’t know that your heart is the kindest one…

I knew that we can change everything, but I never knew we can do it without changing our self….

I knew that I will be yours but I was only hoping if you could be mine….

Now, I know that your are mine and you are the only one….

Thursday, June 21, 2007

2:00 AM here in Toronto

it's 2:00 AM here in Toronto. You are not here but you are in my heart.
I’m looking at the sky and its clouds. I can see the moon light …..
It’s the same moon that I was watching few hours ago when I was sitting close to you. Still it’s there. I know that somewhere in this city, you are thinking about me. I look at the moon, I hope you can see the moon too. It’s waiting for us to reach it. If I were with you, we could go to sunset beach and then we could look at the moon. You know that over there, I will have two moons to look at.
I choose the one that is closer to me.

When you are with me, I don’t need anything else.
I will be with you for the rest of my life.
I will follow you wherever you lead me.
I will be your heart’s guest for the rest of my life.
I will be lost in your eyes.
I choose to be with……


Your heart, your eyes, your soul and your body…
One day, soon, they will be mine…..


All I neeeded, All i need, all i will need
is you....

Salman ... 2:00 AM

Monday, June 18, 2007

These Days....

It’s hard to believe that sometimes, some people come to your heart faster than you can track them. They come faster than you can love them or even faster than you can like them. It was a quiet afternoon when I realized that my heart is taken. It was so fast that it didn’t let me to be prepared for it. It was fast because it was not happening through regular senses. I didn’t fall for an ordinary feeling. It was an extra-ordinary feeling that took control of my heart. Shall I name it Love? If this is love, what were all other feelings that I had before and named them love?

I’m confused because I searched my experiences, other’s experiences with this hope to find out what this feeling is…

The more I searched; more I found out that this is not a regular and known feeling.

I will write more about if I find more about it but don’t expect that much …

Friday, June 08, 2007

Let the morning sun proclaim

People like me think that everything in this world can be addressed by the power of the mind.
People like me want to analyze each movements they make. People like me never like the change. They don't want the risk. They don't want to lose anything, but you know what , I lost what I was worry to lose. Why? simply because I was so selfish. Because I wanted to observe my feelings. Because I was looking for an applicable formula for happiness. Happiness is the first thing that you lose in your way to find it.

Happiness can not be found in complexity. There is a simpler way to be happy.

I have started to think less and do more. I want to enjoy my life and this is my desire.
I'm not burned with my desires. I like to do them and that's why I trust them.

I trust what i like and i like what I trust.


Signed by:
A semi-happy-in-changing-procedure Salman!!!

Saturday, May 26, 2007

Sunset Beach....

It was spring in the Air and I was happy. I was really happy, my dear friend was standing close to me and we were at sunset beach. There was no sunset, but there were nice stars and I could see the moon.

I wanted to rank the moon in your eyes...
I wanted to look at you for years and years....
I wanted to take you away from whatever that was bothering you.
I wanted to give you happiness.
I wanted to share my happiness with me since i was really happy. I didn't want to loose a minute or even a seconds. We walked, we talked , we laughed , we ............

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Her voice.....

I was alone, I was looking at the sky and I was whispering loneliness when she called my name.
Blue skies, these white clouds, Toronto and its nice weather in May, her voice and all she says, her friendly attitudes, they are nice, they are my little reasons to be happy. They may look small, but they make big differences. Good friend is rare to find and hard to keep. It requires appreciation and understanding. As a nice quote says:

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

I had a dream last night.


I had a dream last night.

In my dream, you were mine and I was yours.

You were mine longer than time...


I was looking at your eyes....

I was kissing your smile....

I was smelling your skin...

I was holding your hands....

I was whispering your name...


It was spring in the air and we're together...

We were running, We were the sunshine...

We were the soul of the world ... the world of happiness....

I was holding your hands, i was looking at your eyes..


It was a new world, a brand new world , the world that i was looking through your eyes.

It was a better world, it was a kinder world....

Skies were smiling at us.


Your smile, it's the last thing that i remember, your eyes were closed and when I reached my hand to touch your face, you opened your eyes, you opened your eyes and ....


I woke up, The Sun was shining in my eyes ......... Sunrise..... Your Eyes.


Salman


Saturday, March 03, 2007

I'm dancing with you

I was looking at the moon, i was dancing with you....

Sunday, February 25, 2007

To reach your smile


I’m sitting here. I’m alone and I’m thinking about you. Out of this my room’s window, there are hundreds of couples those they, hand in hand, walk along each other. They shape the snow by their foot prints. I’m sitting close to the window. Behind a window that opens my eyes to the rest of the world. A world, which will be mine, when I own you. I look at the sky, I can imagine that your eyes are looking at me. You simile I can see that sky similes. This sky would be a kinder one, if you were sitting close to me when I was looking at that. I imagine my favorite dream, in that dream; you come to me in a nice and gentle blue dress. You call my name and I enjoy your soft and tender voice. I look at my nights; they are all waiting for you. I look at my arms, they beg your presence.
I open the window; I reach my hand out to reach the sky, to reach your smile…..

Friday, February 16, 2007

For each forgotten kiss

For each forgotten kiss
For all the memories
For all the times alone
Said all we had to say

You played your part so well
A modern Romeo
You came on Cupid's wings
And then you flew away

When you touch my face
When you call my name
I'm burned with desire

When you touch my face
When you call my name
I'm burned with desire
But you left me in the rain

For every sleepless night
Forever in your arms
For every hour spent
Lost in the revery

You broke your promises
No shame and no regrets
You burned the bridges too
An endless mystery

When you touch my face
So beautiful
When you call my name
My name...
I'm burned with desire

When you touch my face
So beautiful
When you call my name
My name...
I'm burned with desire
But you left me in the rain

When you touch my face
So beautiful
When you call my name
My name...
I'm burned with desire

When you touch my face
When you call my name
I'm burned with desire
But you left me in

Thursday, February 01, 2007

A sad Salman, a very SAD ONE!!

Each and every one of us, has his/her own issue. It's life which is playing with us. In the world of illusions, we just see what we have to see.We just play, What the director of life has decided for us to play. I know that it's sad but it's true. There are some moments in the life that we are just behind a glass, we see, it makes us sad, we want to change it, we reach our hand out to touch it, to change it. Our hands hit the glass and it hurts. it really does. We can see, we can feel, We can't change. It's hard to see when a man cry, when a real man cry. When a real man, which is basically capable of doing anything, can not do anything. When human with all its complex and advanced knowledge can not do anything. Who can stand this sadness? We can't do anything..........

We are just some simple part of this life, it's the director of this life which gives us roles to play. If the role is over, we are over too ........

Sad Salman, A very SAD one....

Sunday, January 21, 2007

I know we could live tomorrow ......

It's cold around here....

It's night here....

Night and all its stars are dancing with me...

I'm waiting for tomorrow.

I know we could live tomorrow but I want to live today....

Who can say if we would be here tomorrow ? Who can say what we should or what we shouldn't do today? I know we could live tomorrow but I want to live today..

I don't want to wait. No execuse, no sorrow, no hassle. I live today, I know what I want to do, and I know that I can do it. I'm going to do it.........

I know we could do that tomorrow.....

Salman

One breath at a time...

I didn't write this one,but this is so nice....

You've got to live for the moment;
Today you're alive -- tomorrow you might not be...

Never take love for granted;
and never lose sight
of the things you feel
but you just cannot see...

You've got to reach for the summit...
'til you can no longer climb

Remember: life is priceless; and...you've got to live it...

One breath at a time...

No excuses; no holding back; just...
One breath at a time...

Don't rush it through; don't let it pass you by...
live it...
One breath at a time...
One breath at a time...

It should be so very easy for each of us to see
that...at any moment
fate can turn on a dime

So live life while you're in it;
there's simply nothing more sublime;

You've got treasure every minute...

You've got to reach for the summit...
'til you can no longer climb

Remember: life is priceless; and...you've got to live it...

One breath at a time...

No excuses; no holding back; just...
One breath at a time...

Don't rush it through; don't let it pass you by...
live it...
One breath at a time...
One breath at a time...

And when I just can't seem
to make it through another day,
That's when I'm haunted
By the words you used to say:

You've got to reach for the summit...
'til you can no longer climb

Remember: life is priceless; and...you've got to live it...

One breath at a time...

No excuses; no holding back; just...
One breath at a time...

Don't rush it through; don't let it pass you by...
live it...
One breath at a time...
One breath at a time...

Friday, October 13, 2006

I am life itself.

I didn't write this one, it's really nice ....

A lover knows only humility.
He has no choice.
He steals into your alley at night, he has no choice.
He longs to kiss every lock of your hair, don't fret,
he has no choice.
In his frenzied love for you, he longs to break
the chains of his imprisonment, he has no choice.

A lover asked his beloved:
- Do you love yourself more than you love me?
Beloved replied: I have died to myself and I live for you.
I've disappeared from myself and my attributes,
I am present only for you.
I've forgotten all my learnings,
but from knowing you I've become a scholar.
I've lost all my strength, but from your power I am able.

I love myself...I love you.
I love you...I love myself.

I am your lover, come to my side,
I will open the gate to your love.
Come settle with me, let us be neighbours to the stars.
You have been hiding so long, endlessly drifting in the sea of my love.
Even so, you have always been connected to me.
Concealed , revealed , in the unknown, in the
un-manifest.
I am life itself.

You have been a prisoner of a little pond
I am the ocean and its turbulent flood.
Come merge with me,
leave this world of ignorance.
Be with me, I will open the gate to your love.

I desire you more than food or drink
My body my senses my mind hunger for your taste
I can sense your presence in my heart
although you belong to all the world
I wait with silent passion for one gesture one
glance from you.

Friday, August 25, 2006

It's nice to .....

It’s nice to be your self.

It’s nice to share your life.

It’s nice to know that you have a life to spend on what you want.

It’s nice to have mutual respect.

It’s nice to be free. Freedom and peace is what so many people have died for.

It’s nice to live at the ongoing moment.

In my search of freedom, I left all my analysis behind.

It’s nice to face the virgin side of life.

It’s nice to enjoy the givem moments.

It’s nice to see you.

Sunday, April 23, 2006

York University

Well, I have started studding IT Management at York University. Here is more information about York and its origin.


Lorna R. Marsden, PhD

President and Vice-Chancellor



Clearly, our approach is working. Founded in 1959, York University is now Canada's third largest university, and world-renowned for attracting students who forge their own unique paths. That’s because York offers an unparalleled academic experience. Our top-ranked programs set international standards. Our unique, interdisciplinary approach to learning allows students to combine majors in completely different fields. York’s faculty expands the horizons of our students, providing them with a broad perspective of the world that opens up new ways of thinking. And our research tackles challenges by taking a uniquely interdisciplinary approach that results in real-world solutions.

York offers full and part-time graduate and undergraduate degree programs to almost 50,000 students in 10 faculties. Our Faculty of Arts is the largest in Canada. At the Atkinson Faculty of Liberal and Professional Studies, liberal arts students can complement their degree with professional studies courses and certificates. Glendon College offers bilingual education. York’s Faculty of Education offers students more teaching experience than any other education program in Ontario. The Faculty of Environmental Studies is celebrated for the best individualized, interdisciplinary masters program in the world. The Faculty of Fine Arts is the only one of its kind in Ontario and one of the most renowned in North America. York’s Faculty Science and Engineering is one of Canada's leading teaching and research institutions. Osgoode Hall Law School, Canada's largest law school, is also among the most respected. The Schulich School of Business is consistently ranked among the top business schools in the world. The Faculty of Graduate Studies is Ontario's second largest graduate school, offering both traditional and non-traditional interdisciplinary areas of study. York University Libraries are active participants in pilot projects, consortia initiatives and collaborative endeavors to place York University Libraries on the leading edge in supporting our researchers and students.

Please visit the Office of the President Web site. To learn more about us visit Know the York U Difference. If you are interested in applying to York University or are following up on your application, please visit the Future Students site for more information.

Lorna R. Marsden, PhD

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Novels and their Power

Many of us have experienced that special moment when we fall in love with a book and can’t stop reading it. For 13-year-old Mordecai Richler, the moment comes when he starts All Quiet on the Western Front. He starts reading the book and soon fills seduced by the novel. It creates turbulence in his life and eventually obligates him to see the truth. The novel has a deep effect on his point of view. The novel changes his assumptions about fiction and Germans

For the young Richler, novels are untrue and romantic stories. He looks for facts and reality not for untrue novels: “I want fact. I can’t be bothered with stories … I just haven’t got the time for such non-sense” (P 65). There are some reasons that he likes facts and true stories. He use these book to show that he is a smart boy. As a teenage boy, he is experiencing lack of attention from girls. This is one of the reasons he pays more attention to reading serious book. Despite this fact he falls in love with the novel and, like all the great loves, the affair challenges his presumptions. He admits this when he writes:
“I never expected that a mere novel, a stranger’s tale, could actually be dangerous, creating such turbulence in my life, obligating me to question so many received ideas”(P 66). Reading the All Quiet on the Western Front wakes him up to show him the power of novel and its effects.


In 1944 and before Richler reads the novel, He was wishing “an excruciating death” for every German on the earth. He was cheering every German city that was bombed. He saw Germans as cruel enemies. When he started reading the book, he didn’t know that it would change his impression about Germans. The novel that reveals a lot of truths that Richler didn’t realize was unaware of. One of the truths is that Germans are like any other human being. As story goes, he finds more similarity between German soldiers and himself, which enables him to empathize with them. This empathy continues and eventually novel wins his love for a German’ soldier.

Novels and fictions will help us to sense and experience the story. They will touch the soul and heart of reader and eventually will help him or her to understand the story. As an example the recalled novel creates a connection between being a young Jewish in 1944 and feeling sorry for the death of German soldiers. It shows that such a thing is possible through the magic of novel and its power to open the eyes of readers.
All Quiet on the Western Front is the sample of a powerful novel which “seduces” Richler and eventually changes his worldview and reading habits.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

The Old Woman

“The Old Woman” is about a woman called Molly who has left England and has immigrated to Canada to live with her husband. They had known each other for few months when they married in England. Soon after marriage her husband has left her to come to Canada. For her, it has been three years of waiting and loneliness while her husband has been busy with his beloved power-house.
A house close to a noisy waterfall, several miles away from the nearest town, taciturn people with French-Canadian culture are numerous problems that she has to deal with. The author, Joyce Marshall, has pointed loneliness as one of the most important issues that can hurt an immigrant in a new country.
The story starts in the station at Montreal. Molly has found that her husband is changed. “It was more than the absence of uniform. His face seemed so still, and there was something about his mouth—a sort of slackness. And at times she would turn and find him looking at her, his eyes absorbed and watchful” (Marshall 34). The word “still”, “slackness” and “watchful” shows that he is not interested to see his wife. Molly feels that her husband doesn’t have enough attention to her. Despite the sad condition, she tries to tell herself that her husband would be closer to her when they get home. It’s a romantic morning when they leave the train. “It was grey dawn faintly disturbed with pink when they left the train” (Marshall 34). After a long journey over the snow they arrive home. Molly is tired and she needs a quiet and friendly environment but the sound of the waterfall is annoying her.
This inconvenience situation and lack of attention from her husband is increasing her fear of loneliness. It reminds her last three years, three years of waiting and loneliness. She has left England to escape the loneliness. She deserves it. She doesn’t have family or relative and she is far from her friends, this fact is increasing her dependency on her husband. He doesn’t help her to settle into new life.

Another issue that Molly is experiencing is environmental loneliness. Not only her husband doesn’t spend time with her but also she doesn’t know any neighbour. As Marshal writes:
“There were no neighbours within miles, no telephone calls or visits from milkman or baker—only one of Toddy’s sweepers coming in once a fortnight with supplies and mail from Missawani” (P 37.) If it was a crowded and friendlier neighborhood or if she knew some people around her, there would be fewer issues. Coldness, grey and cloudy sky, lack of sun, taciturn people are parameters that are helping loneliness to take over molly’s life. When I first came to Canada, I was living in Richmond Hill which is a quiet area. I can remember how lonely I felt. I felt there's no one in my life that I can share my feelings with. I came to the conclusion that I’m unacceptable and unlovable. But actually that wasn’t because of me, it was society which made me feel that way. Molly in “The Old Woman” has the same feeling. She came from a European-style country where people are friendlier and warmer. It must be so hard for her to leave in a house so far from any neighborhood.

Immigration is a long and complex process and relocation to another country is not easy. A different culture and a different life-style will increase the issues that an immigrant is experiencing in the new country. Without any doubt, loneliness is one the most important problems that will affect a newcomer’s life. “The Old Woman” has demonstrated that how a woman can be hurt by her husband if he doesn’t show compassion and understanding for her situation as an immigrant in the new country.


31 Jan. 2006
Marshall, Joyce. “The Old Woman.” The New Oxford Book of Canadian Stories in English. Ed Margaret Atwood and Robert Weaver.
Toronto: Oxford, 1997

Monday, October 17, 2005

My Beloved Bill gates

Isn't it amazing ?

Bill Gates said :

"Well, one thing that's great for me is that the PC that Paul Allen and I dreamed about 30 years ago still does not exist"

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Simple Life .....

People say "I want peace." If you remove I (ego), and your want (desire), you are left with peace.

With a few flowers in my garden, half a dozen pictures and some books, I live without envy.- Lope de Vega

Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things.- Robert Brault

Simplicity, clarity, singleness: these are the attributesthat give our lives power and vividness and joy.- Richard Halloway

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Let's .......

Let’s talk about green forests
Let’s share our dreams
Let’s find a way to get away of this busy world.
Let’s leave people to do crazy things everyday
Let’s kiss the rain, let’s join the sun’s army.
Let’s cover the crimson hearts
Let’s close our eyes, let’s feel the darkness. Isn’t it easier when you don’t see the cruel world?
Let’s be together. Let’s be together. Let’s be mine, let’s be yours, we belong to you and me.

Monday, August 15, 2005

.......هنوز آنجاست



ميچينم آن ثانيه هايی را که به تو فکر می کنم. ميچينم آن ناب ترين لحظه های زندگی را
ميچينم آنها را

ميچينم آنها را و می کارم آنها را سرزمین حاصل خیز آرزوهایم....
از آنها گل عشق می روید. تا رویش گل عشق در کنارش بیدار میمانم و برایش از یاد دستهای
مهربانت گهواره میسازم ........ آن را از چشمه های پاک نگاهت سیراب می کنم
آنگاه گل عشق را می چینم و به موهایت سنجاقش میکنم
آنجا از عطر موهایت لبریز میشود
گل نازنین را بر میدارم و در سبزه زارهای زنگیم می کارم
خورشید را می بینم که خندان است و به من میگوید
در سرزمین های زیر سلطه یال های طلاییم ؛ خوشبو ترین گل ها گل توست
من می خندم و می دانم که عطر موهایت
.......هنوز آنجاست
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Monday, August 01, 2005

I used to ...........

I used to think that I was strong
I realise now I was wrong
'Cause every time I see your face
My mind becomes an empty space
And with you lying next to me
Feels Like I can hardly breathe

I close my eyes
The moment I surrender to you
Let love be blind
Innocent and tenderly true
So lead me through tonight
But please turn out the light
'Cause I'm lost every time I look at you

And in the morning when you go

Wake me gently so I'll know
That loving you was not a dream
And whisper softly what it means to be with me
Then every moment we're apart
Will be a lifetime to my heart

I close my eyes
The moment I surrender to you
Let love be blind
Innocent and tenderly true
So lead me through tonight
But please, please turn out the light
'Cause I'm lost every time I look at you
Lost. Every time I look at you

By : IL Divo

Monday, July 25, 2005

Crash

Last night I watched the movie “Crash”. It was a good movie. It has a great plot. It’s considering real life issues. From realistic point of view, this is a nice and fair movie but at the same time it’s experiencing lack of humanity. Usually you can learn something from movies. Personally I go to movies to be trained, to be entertained. This movie is describing the reality of some people’s every day tragedy. I didn’t learn anything from that. I was looking for a great message in every section of movie and unfortunately it leaved me craving for that.
I would have rather seen The Upside of Anger. When we begin with anger, violence and uneven life, we should address it correctly. Director leaved us at the same side as we began the story.
If director is looking for us to come and finalize the story, he has not given us enough resources to do so. Nonetheless, I want to say that this movie is an excellent depiction of what America has become because of the lack of communication, understanding and emotion. I strongly believe that at the 21st century we expect art to come and help us to change this crimson world.

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Lack of Sleep.

As a busy person, I have been always working on several tasks simultaneously and eventually I don't get enough time to sleep. Those they were my colleague in Iran know me as a hard worker and none-stop guy. It was four years ago that I received a letter from Microsoft, appreciating my hardworking on IT and networking. At that time, I was thinking about Nerd wise life.

I was begging for a situation to work and live like Microsoft’s nerds. When I went to Canada, my dream welcomed true. I start working at a very high-tech position in an ASP company.
I was working from 8:30 AM till 1 or 2 AM. That was perfect. Doing several R&D tasks, I was extremely busy. I rarely found time to see my family and friends. Last June there was a communication issue between Vancouver and Vietnam VoIP routes. I spent almost 19 hours per day to solve that issue. As a person with bad headaches, sleep depriving is not a good
Option. Recently I have been sleeping even lower than 4 hours per 24 hours. Frequently I read some articles about the disadvantages of sleep depriving. I’m looking for a way to coordinate my tasks with the time that I have. Your comments are highly appreciated.

Vital Information:
• In a person who is sleep-deprived, one part of the brain shuts down while other parts will kick in to help compensate.
• Regardless of the brain's attempt to overcome sleep deprivation, a sleep-deprived person cannot perform mental tasks as well as someone who is well-rested.
• For brain recovery, the early part of sleep each night is the most important.

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

Unbelievable Creativity....

I have been in touch with Japanese people last week and to be honest to you I have learned tens of ideas from them.
They are humans with high level IQ, powerful imagination and excellent execution. Their creativity is awesome. They love to be pioneer; they love to create new and unique things. Their best products are dedicated for internal usage whereas they export their low quality products. Amazing thing is that their low quality product has the highest quality in the world. If you buy a car in Japan, it comes with full functionality. If you buy the same card made by Japan in another country you will find several missed facilities.

Everybody knows that Japan is not a wide country and they have lack of land for creating energy. But they need energy for their factories.
As the major city of Japan,Tokyo is the most populated city in the country. Everybody heard about its great and powerful intercity transportation.
Yeah, that’s it. They are using it as a source of electrical power. If you have been using metro entrances, you should be familiar with entrance stuffs like turnstiles.

A turnstile!


As a populated city, everyday tens of thousands of people are passing turnstiles. Each time that a person passes these turnstiles is turning a turbine to creating electricity power.

Think about it and you will find out why they are becoming the leader of Technology and science.

Monday, July 04, 2005

Canada Day!

Three days ago,1st of July, was Canada day. We went to lakeshore to see the fire work. Toronto is a big city with normal population. But At that night, almost everyone was in the street. Tens of thousands of people were happy and all together to celebrate Canada day. They were all there to say that they are proud of this free and great country. I was proud too. We were all Persian but we were signing “O’ Canada “when we were sitting at lake shore. At a moment when I was whispering “Our home and native land!” I missed something in my heart. Canada was not my native land. How could I change my native land?

The idea of having a day for our country is a perfect one. But it shouldn’t contain any ideology or a religion. It should be all about Iran, just Iran, neither democratic nor any other kind of Iran. It should be dedicated to Iran itself.

What do you think about a celeberation day for Iran?

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Voice messages......

readt it, it's funny!

Most of us have now learned to live with voice mail as a necessary
part of our lives. Have you ever wondered what it would be like if
God decided to install voice mail? Imagine praying and hearing the
following

Thank you for calling heaven.

For English press 1
For Spanish press 2
For all other languages, press 3

Please select one of the following options

Press 1 for request
Press 2 for thanksgiving
Press 3 for complaints
Press 4 for all others

I am sorry, all our Angels and Saints are busy helping other sinners
right now. However, your prayer is important to us and we will
answer it in the order it was received. Please stay on the line.

If you would like to speak to

God, press 1
Jesus, press 2
Holy spirit, press 3

To find a loved one that has been assigned to heaven press 5, then
enter his social security # followed by the pound sign. If you
receive a negative response, please hang up and dial area code 666.

For reservations to heaven, please enter JOHN followed by the
numbers, 3:16.

For answers to nagging questions about dinosaurs, life and other
planets, please wait until you arrive in heaven for the specifics.

Our computers show that you have already been prayed for today,
please hang up and call again tomorrow.

The office is now closed for the weekend to observe a religious
holiday.

If you are calling after hours and need emergency assistance, please
contact your local pastor.

Thank you and have a heavenly day

Monday, June 27, 2005

Can You believe ....????!!!!!!!

I was working on a windows 2003 machine in Chicago today and I found that it needs to be updated with service pack 1.
As usual, I accepted Microsoft update request and then installation wizard appeared. I just shocked when I saw the file size, it was about 140 MB.

For me, it means that this …. Microsoft forgot to put half of kernel with the released version.

With a cable internet download time will be 3 mins.
With an ADSL bandwidth it will take 3 hours to download it.
With a dial-up connection , download time will be 18 hours.
(Consider that in this case you are sitting behind of your PC and your fingers are crossed to have a reliable connection)


Now please figure it out:

Whole procedure in Canada: 9 mins
Whole procedure in Iran : 27 hours

Friday, June 24, 2005

Friendship......

"Friends are windows to the world of views that you had never seen them before"

"I have been looking for happiness, I was wondering why I couldn’t reach that. I didn’t know that there is a golden key for the gateway to the happiness, I found that key when I found my best friend."


"Good friends are like stars.... You don't always see them, but you know they are always there" by : Marcus Tullius

"Friendship doubles our joy and divides our grief." By : Unknown

"Friends are the family we choose for ourselves" by : Edna Buchanan

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

No wonder if ....

Blue skies….
White clouds….
Windy days….
Wind is moving clouds faster than we can reach them…. Faster than we can get chance to rest under their shades
Do you want to be under their shade? always? so run with them

Look at that one….
It’s whiter …. it’s faster….
I want that to be mine.
………no wonder if I’m running faster than the others.

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Politics

IF PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD, PARTICULARLY POLITICIANS, WERE HONEST WITH THEMSELVES AND WOULD THINK BEFORE THEY ACTED OR SPOKE, THIS WORLD WOULD BE A MUCH BETTER PLACE TO LIVE IN.

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Without Description...

"... be the change you wish to see in the world."


Gandhi

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Venerating

I know people, there are moments that they are venerating whatever that they have received in the whole life.
For me, I need the whole life to respect what I have received at the moment that I saw you

This is exactly what I think about a friendship.

You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore.
You shall be together when white wings of death scatter your days.
Aye, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.
But let there be spaces in your togetherness,
And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.
Love one another but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.
Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf.
Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.
Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.
And stand together, yet not too near together;
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow.

by : Khalil Gibran Khalil

Monday, June 13, 2005

Figure it out!

Sky is a limit

This week is all about execution again. I will do what I say; I will say what I think. I have a very important exam this week.I will Pass it. For my opportunities, sky is a limit.

Sunday, June 12, 2005

Interview With BBC

Hi Guys

My friends asked me to give them the link for BBC's interview with toronto's webloggers. here it is :

گپ و قهوه با وبلاگ نويسان تورنتو

Friday, June 10, 2005

Reiki (Episode II)

Stop and reflect for a moment. Imagine the implications of the universe around us made from energy which can be shaped and also manipulated by thoughts. This is the implication of both Quantum Physics and ancient Metaphysics. Reiki makes some diseases easier to explain, especially those which have no apparent physical cause. Also it makes miraculous cures easier to explain. For example there was research study done a couple years ago showing that prayer improves the health of those who are prayed for, the focus of intent in prayer sends thoughts out in the form of "I wish such-and-so to happen", so if the world is energy subject to the power of thought then prayers must work (depending on how clearly and carefully you hold and elaborate on the prayers or thoughts). Remember this while you are about to know what is Reiki.

For more information please see the First Episode

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Internet Pain

I had an IT class in Iran which was Internet Security. I was training a great book titled as "Hacker Exposed" and students were so happy with it. I suggest you to take a look at it.
In a country like Iran that we are using the Internet just for fun of it, security is not an issue. But for those that they are experiencing web-based life style, security is an important issue.

Network engineers have defined the following types of Internet Attacks:

• Social engineering
– Fooling the victim for fun and profit

• Impersonation
– Stealing access rights of authorized users

• Exploits
– Exploiting a hole in software or operating

• Transitive trust
– Exploiting host-host or network-network trust

• Data driven
– Trojans, trapdoors, viruses

• Infrastructure
– Taking advantage of protocol or infrastructure features or bugs

• Denial of service
– Preventing system from being used


I will do my best to dedicate one session to each title and clarify the exact meaning of each of them.

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Nice Poem

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

Monday, June 06, 2005

Performance

It is an immutable law in business that words are words, explanations are explanations, promises are promises—but only performance is reality.

If last week was about exectution this week is about the performance.

Saturday, June 04, 2005

To whom it may ......

When you are working so hard
When you are doing something more than what you can
When your work hours is sometimes around 16 hours per day
When you are just a young boy whereas people expect you more than a 40 years man
When you have several tasks that hide them from your friends
When you sleep 23 hours per week
When you are handling the 4 major items simultaneously
If some one very close to you tell you that you are ".........." at 5 am , it will really hurt your heart.
How can you mend my broken heart? You didn't know that what I was doing yesterday.
Just keep in mind 3rd of June. I may have a surprise for you.

Thursday, June 02, 2005

When it's .............

When it’s rainy, I can smell your skin.
When it’s quiet, I can hear your voice.
When it’s warm, I can feel your arms.
When it’s cold, I can feel being without you.
When it’s night, I can hold you tight.
When it’s day, I know that you are there.
When it’s spring, I know that you are coming.
When it’s summer, I know that you are laughing.
When it’s perfect, I know that you do that.
When it’s great, I know it’s about you.
When it’s sad, I remember living without you.
When it’s happy, I remember being with you.
When it’s about my heart, I know it beats for you.
When it’s about my shoulders, I know it’s for you.
When it’s about my life, I know it’s nothing without you.

To my real love Which i found in June 2007.

Some times we need more eyes to see

There are moments that you can not believe what you have. What do you name a thing which is beyond your imagination? miracle? Is it just miracle? No it’s not.
It’s combination of love, happiness, kindness, greatness with eternity. God, I want to say thank you for everything in this great world. I want to have it longer than time.


Some times we need more eyes to see, more ears to hear, more words to talk, more times to live , more and more …. So we choose to be in love.

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

What is chapter 11 bankruptcy?

Chapter 11 is typically used for business bankruptcies and restructuring. It is not commonly used by individual consumers since it is far more complex and expensive to pursue. It allows businesses to reorganize themselves, giving them an opportunity to restructure debt and get out from under certain burdensome leases and contracts. Typically a business is allowed to continue to operate while it is in Chapter 11, although it does so under the supervision of the Bankruptcy Court and its appointees.


What happens in developing the chapter 11 plan?

The debtor company develops a plan with the various committees. The company or its counsel usually prepares a disclosure statement and reorganization plan and files it with the court. If is complete (if the company is publicly held, it is reviewed by the SEC), creditors (and sometimes the stockholders) vote on the plan.The Bankruptcy Court confirms the

Execution

I love people those they do what they say. A friend of mine has done a great Job.

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Tight Schedule

Who can understand the load that I have?

6 hours Demo27 E-mail (you should spend at least 20 min for each of them) so approximately 9 hours work
3 Installation / approximately 9 hours
2 router Configuration / approximately 2 hours
Internal IT Tasks / 1 hour

I have 27 hours work to do for today.

Monday, May 30, 2005

Think,Live,Love Net Wise !!!

Think,Live,Love Net Wise !!! For those that they were my student in Dubai and Iran it's a known sentence. it's almost 12 years that i think, live , love computer wise. I really miss my students, the IT departement that we had.I was an IT manager for 3 years. we have implemented the first IT depratement in east of Tehran. My dear students , my dear friends I miss you!

Internet lifestyle (Funny!)

1. Love Connection: You and your wife will celebrate your anniversary by logging on to the chat room where you first met.

Comment: I really love the connection. it's somehow my food. Without connection, I'm not alive anymore.

Old version: I think, therefore I am
New Version: I connect, therefore I am.


2. The New Agoraphobia: You haven't been outside in days because you work at home, all your friends are on ICQ, you can order all your food online, you've just downloaded The Matrix, and you're waiting for your eBay auction to end.

3. Ping-Pong Machine: The message on your telephone answering machine is something like, "Hi, you've reached the address of www.JoeSmith.net; please leave your IP address, and I'll ping you as soon as I can."

4. You're Reading This: Even worse, you're going to forward it to someone else.

Saturday, May 28, 2005

To analyze your current

To analyze your current situation, draw a chart of your work flow. Mark all correct procedures with green , mark all wrong procedures with red. If you do not see something that should be there, write it down and try to find a place for it. Your first priority is converting the red signs to green and then you will put the missed parts into their sections.

Thursday, May 26, 2005

Missed Part of My Manner

I’m working on my Execution and I think this is the missed part of my life. This is almost 3 days that I have changed my plan.




Distlry and District- Toronto

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Execution ! Execution ! Execution !

I like to tell people that all of our products and business will go through three phases. There's vision, patience, and execution.

Steve Ballmer,Microsoft's CEO

Thursday, May 19, 2005

Music's Keyboard

Hey Guys

Finally I bought the Music Keyboard. It’s awesome. Give me 1 month to work with it and then I will let you hear what I’m playing.

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Where the Music begins!

This is almost 6 years that I have been working with music instrumentals like keyboard and Piano but still I’m an amateur. probably you are whispering “shame on you….”
Today I’m going to buy a professional keyboard. I Hope that it can be a break-event in my music experience.

I Will keep you guys updated.

That’s it !

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Getting IT help

"Getting IT help is often like some nightmarish choreography that will only end when you die!! ", I read this nice and true sentence in Globe And Mail newspaper.

there was an article titled as "Paper clips and other technologies " with this idea that if there is anything wrong with your computer, finally you need a paper clip to insert it into small hole in back of your PC until you hear a long beep which means it is resented. there you go , now your lovely PC is fine and alive !

The idea that paper clip, is the world's most powerful technology, had once again triumphed. You note this in your leather-bound agenda.

Monday, May 16, 2005

Reiki (Episode I )

Reiki (pronounced Ray-Key) is a method of natural healing based on the application of Universal Life Force Energy (the name literally means Universal Life Force Energy). I try to collect some information about Reiki and present it with the purpose of spreading knowledge of what Reiki is.

Reiki is one of the more widely known forms of energy healing. Energy Healing involves direct application of Chi for the purpose of strengthening the clients energy system (aura). Chi is the term used by the Chinese mystics and martial artists for the underlying force the Universe is made of. Mystics in all cultures have talked about the physical universe being made of an underlying form of something, much as modern physics research is now coming to understand the Universe is made of energy which is subject to (or affected by) thought. Just as modern physics says this energy is affected by thought the mystics also say this underlying form is affected by thought, going so far as to claim we create our own reality from our thinking and the thoughts we share between each of us every day.






Just for today, do not worry.
Just for today, do not anger.
Honor your parents, teachers,
and elders.Earn your living honestly.
Show gratitude to everything.
Dr. Mikao Usui

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

I love Bill Gates !

Everybody knows that I love Bill Gates. It has been 12 years that I’m listening what he says, reading what he writes, doing what he recommend and ……
Here are some nice quotes from him.



Life is not fair; get used to it.

If you can't make it good, at least make it look good.

It's fine to celebrate success but it is more important to heed the lessons of failure.

Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one.

Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you find yourself.

Often you have to rely on intuition.

Television is not real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

T.S. Eliot (1888-1965)


1888 September 26: Thomas Stearns Eliot born in St. Louis, Missouri to Henry Ware and Charlotte Stearns Eliot.

1898 A student at Smith Academy in St. Louis

1905 To Milton Academy in Massachusetts

1906-10 Undergraduate years at Harvard. Reads Symons’s The Symbolist Movement in Literature and the poetry of Laforgue. Studies with George Santayana and Irving Babbitt.

1910-11 Having finished BA and MA degrees at Harvard, spends a year at the Sorbonne in Paris. In the summer of 1911, finishes a version of "The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock"

1911-14 Returns to Harvard to study philosophy as a graduate student. Begins doctoral thesis on F.H. Bradley.

1914 To England on fellowship; meets Ezra Pound.

1915 Marries Vivien Haigh-Wood on June 26th; begins publishing poems that later appear in the Prufrock volume.

1916 Eliot working as teacher at Highgate Junior School and as University Extension Lecturer.

1917 Prufrock and Other Observation published. Eliot takes a position at Lloyds Bank in the Colonial and Foreign Department.

1919 Ara Vos Prec published, with "Gerontion" and the poems later published in Poems – 1920. "Tradition and the Individual Talent" appears in The Egoist.

1920 The Sacred Wood published.

1921 Ill and exhausted, Eliot takes leave from Lloyds Bank. Recuperating at Margate and Lausanne, finishes the drafts of The Waste Land, which he then shows to Pound.

1922 The Waste Land published. First issue of Criterion appears.

1925 Poems 1909-1925 published (with "The Hollow Men"). Eliot joins the publishing house of Faber & Gwyer, leaves Lloyds bank.

1927 Enters the Church of England and assumes British citizenship

1928 For Lancelot Andrewes published.

1930 Ash-Wednesday published.

1932 Selected Essays 1917-1932

1933 Eliot’s 1932-33 Norton lectures at Harvard published under the title The Use of Poetry and the Use of Criticism (1933). At the University of Virginia, he delivers the lectures later published as After Strange Gods (1934). Obtains legal separation from Vivien.

1934 The Rock: A Pageant Play performed and published.

1935 Murder in the Cathedral performed.

1936 Collected Poems 1909-1935 (first appearance of "Burnt Norton").

1939 The Family Reunion performed. The Idea of a Christian Society published. Last issue of Criterion.

1940 East Coker published.

1941 The Dry Salvages published.

1942 Little Gidding published.

1947 Vivien Eliot dies.

1948 Wins Nobel Prize for Literature. Notes Towards the Definition of Culture published.

1949 The Cocktail Party performed.

1953 The Confidential Clerk performed.

1957 Married Valerie Fletcher on January 10. On Poetry and Poets published.

1958 The Elder Statesman performed.

1963 Collected Poems 1909-1962.

1965 Dies on January 4th; his ashes to East Coker

Monday, May 09, 2005

SOS for My Tasks

Today is Monday; I have 31 pre-defined tasks and 24 e-mails. Please help!! Any assistance is welcome.

Sunday, May 08, 2005

About me

Eternity is my time limitation.
Endless love is my kind of love.
Brightness is the feature of my darkness.
I share all Unsharable things.

Persian kind of Team Work

I was in a birthday party few hours ago and it was so funny. We had so much fun together and it was awesome. We were all Persians (20 people) except one lady. After party we were supposed to go to a dance club.
Here is the decision part :

1) We decided to go to a Persian club and someone said it would be closed. We didn’t care and we went there. Unfortunately he was right and it was closed.
2) We decided to go to a club for salsa dance , again one of us had white shoes on and they didn’t allow him in , for dignity's sake, we all decided not go.
3) The we decided to go to another Persian club , it doesn’t match with our dresses so we didn’t go.
4) We were about to go to another club that someone said let’s forget about club and let’s go somewhere else like a cafe shop and ………..

Note : at the beginning we were about 20 and at the end we were about 9. more than 50 percent loss !!!!!!!!!!!

What I want to say that above story is a real sample of our team work and that’s why we can not manage a group. In Iran I was an IT manager and I had the same issue with all of my staff.
I think they way that we think, manage and make decision is totally wrong. We have the same issue with larger scale about our society. I really want to change the way that I think, manage and make decision.
Execution is what we are missing.