Third consecutive night

It has been dark and cold as arctic winter in my life. Committed to an obligation way above my ability. And this is my shaking voice....asking for mercy, love or understanding. Too tired to fight, I know that I love but my own existence is subject to debate, let alone defending my love....it makes me realize that I am tired, tired and so tired. Tired of everything that i have tried to feel less tired....it's ironic..but this is my life.