Upsetting situation...

Just wanted to write down about few things that are really bothering me right now.

- Alex is taking a lot of my mind and I just don't know the consequences of not having him...

- I wish there was an easy way to get a replacement for him

- I really want to find another Alex for us but it just seem impossible right now as we have other priorities.

Maybe these are the last few years that we are struggling for these things. I came to work and I was already really tired. The whole night I was thinking about what Ifs !

I went to imgfave, "Make me think" collection and saw tens of them to see if they can make me feel better . I guess it's my defense mechanism towards annoying feelings. I feel a bit better now.

I hope in few years, when I check this post again, I see our life at a different stage.

To Alex: You were kind to us and we will always remember you.